HOW I REMEMBERED THAT I HAVE A NAIL IN MY HEAD & A LOT MORE
THE NAIL IN MY HEAD ACCIDENT IN 1970
I didnt really know her, and we had just met. There were many new houses being constructed at this time, and we had gone to see one of them being made.
Here are some of the pics of where I got the nail in my head. I am being shot constantly now in my stomach as I think about Nancy having sex with their kids, listening to the part of the story where the white tylenol things are sent to me at Step Lightly and how Nazma was asking me to try one, this is the file MIC-2011-04-01_19h21m26sb.wav (not on the internet)near the end of file, and working on the place where I got the nail in head pics.
My house as seen from Winged Foot Drive on the right, the back of my house
I went in back of my house, and another house on the right past mine, then past the woods you see on the right
I went past this next house on the right, with the black doggie in the driveway
The brick house above with the white pillars is where the accident happened while it was under construction
Above is a closer image of the house where the accident happened
Above is the way I tried to go home after the accident
Way home seen from how far I got walking home after the accident before help arrived
Above is the picture of my home from Winged Foot Drive
For some reason I have no memory at all of being in pain, none at all. God removed this entirely from my memory. I am grateful for this too. There is much to be thankful for.
I AM OFFERED A CHANCE TO GET THE REWARD FROM DR DELGADO
I guess everyone was so relieved that I survived and with no known problems, I even seemed the same as before the accident, and they wanted to do something to help. And I was offered the opportunity to get in a program where they thought they could help me. And it was experimental. My parents arranged for me to be given a reward. This is the part that wont be discussed in this story on the internet due to a sensitive nature.This is a picture of my mom and dad in their later years.
I will say this much, I was introduced to a famous and brilliant doctor to help me with this condition as there was nothing that could be done. The nail could not be taken out, as my whole head would need to be taken apart, and we didnt have the ability to do this at the time.
WHAT I WAS LIKE AS A KID BEFORE AND AFTER THE ACCIDENT
I remember being told that I didnt change after the accident, and that I was the same as before. This was what I was told before I got in the iLisa program and didnt discuss this again. I was what we called a tomboy, and I preferred the company of boys or at least girls who played boys games. This seemed normal to me, and still does. I collected and built model planes and boats, I really liked the decals. I had a chemistry lab and always entered the science fair with my volcanoes and electrical experiments. Being a tomboy I never played with dolls at all, and I was never the frilly type. I put all the dolls and girl things that I had been given in my parents guest room in the closet. I wouldn't wear dresses without an argument. I always wore pants. At my house Eric and I had more animals than anyone we knew. We had gerbils, hamsters, guinea pigs, fish, snakes, turtles, an iguana, mice, pigeons and even a duck living in mine and Erics bathtub. People came over to see the animals, it was almost like it was a zoo. We had around one hundred animals in total, and it was my favorite hobby. In around second grade I helped stage a sit-in in the principals office to get girls to be able to wear pants to school. I couldn't understand why I had to walk to school in the middle of a freezing winter wearing a dress. There was a rule that girls had to wear dresses to school, and it seemed stupid and wrong.They changed the rules after this for all the girls.Yeah! Boys at school had been pulling my dress up looking at my underpants, they still want to, and it made me really mad, there was nothing I could do back to them. I felt vulnerable in a dress, and back then nobody did anything at school to stop it, it was expected maybe even encouraged at that time. You know boys will be boys. Now I could wear pants. I won a prize for one of my models that I built, it was the Apollo with the Lunar Module, I really liked playing with it. My friends and I listened to all the current rock music, and collected 45's. We listened to the Beatles, Donovan, Cat Stevens and all the current songs. My favorite things to do were playing sports, especially baseball, riding my bike and playing tennis. I collected and traded baseball cards, which at the time was all the rage, at least with the boys. I followed the Yankees and knew all the players and their statistics. I made a record for the most chin-ups of all the girls who had ever attended Murray Avenue which was my school. I was the fastest runner of all the girls too. I got the "gold" presidential award for physical fitness which I was very proud of. I was more often mistaken for being a boy than a girl by everyone.GENETIC TESTING I HAD DONE AS A KID AND THE WANNA F*CK YOU GENE
I think my parents started worrying about me, thinking there was something wrong with me, not only was my mom born intersex, but at the time they thought “it” as described later in the story, was at the time thought to my half sibling, and it would be decades before we were to find out that “it” wasn’t related at all. My mom kept asking me, "you dont really think you are a boy do you?" Sometimes I would say "yes, I do, I am a boy". I dont know why I did that. I knew I was a girl, but it did seem to really get my moms attention.
I think I said it because she kept asking me over and over until I finally agreed. At least she stopped asking me. I was wondering what she was getting at. I knew that I didn't fit the stereo type of a normal female. Even I, around nine or ten years old could see that ~clearly~. My parents decided to get me genetically tested for everything and they brought me to the pediatrician. He ran all sorts of tests including blood tests on me. I had to go to the allergist also, where I went through very lengthy and painful skin testing. One time on the way to get more allergy testing I prayed to God to make the car break. I didnt want to go, the car broke on the way. It had never broken down ever before when I was in the car or ever again. Lucky me, I was really happy. I told my mom I had prayed for it to break, she was glad that it broke too, she realized I really hated this. The genetic testing was brand new and it involved using brand new high tech technology that nobody had really had done. It was a new idea, they explained this to me, and my dad thought it was fascinating. It was some kind of experimental type thing, and it was DNA testing before anyone heard of it. The testing found I had some sort of different type DNA, and that is what I now call the want to F*ck you gene now, at the time I dont know what they called it, this was supposed to be secret and I wasnt supposed to tell anyone, and the results did upset me. The doctor was giving the test results right in front of me, and he was talking to my parents, as if I was invisible, and they were talking about me being a boy, and something about my chromosomes, and another thing they found but that it almost didnt show up at all, almost negative, so not to worry, as there was only a marker, and although I dont remember the name, I clearly remember how they described it to me that the body attacks itself, which really upset me. I now know this to be Lupus. So far no signs of Lupus have shown up in me, although it appears unfortunately to have shown up in my birthfamily who didnt know about this gene until she contacted her mothers side of the family which she hadnt known. I didnt at the time really want to be different My doctor said when I got to be of reproductive age, we would have to discuss this again. I was freaking out, what was wrong with me? I thought I was fine. I was kidding about the being a boy stuff already. My parents advised me not to tell anyone about the test results. However, I did tell one friend, and this friend knew the devil, and so many years later when the devil brought up this idea of asking me to do genetic research, it was actually trying to reactivate old upsetting memories for me, among other evil intentions. The devil wasnt looking to help me, only itself in its ongoing need to hurt me.So information that would upset me given to me and my family, and other information that could have helped me and my family was withheld by the devil.
THE DEVIL AND PREVENTING OUR FAMILY FROM FINDING OUT ABOUT CYSTIC FIBROSIS WHICH IS A DEADLY DISEASE
In the early 1990s my full brother who my mother raised had a son born with what was later found out to be Cystic Fibrosis, and he died as a baby from not having the correct medical information shared with him. This gene was from both mine and my full brothers fathers side of the family. His sons death was originally blamed on SIDS, or Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. I am not writing about my adoptive brother Eric here, this is my full brother that was raised by my birthfamily. This is my brothers son that died at about 6 months old at the babysitter, and the babysitter was blamed for being careless. My moms side of my birthfamily found out after his baby died that he had this condition, the doctors notified them after his death, but this critical medical information wasnt allowed to be shared with me. This was because of the stupid devil agreement again. I had to figure this out on my own, and that was no matter what, and obviously to the devil this was including if anyone dies as a result of this. Since her hate of children and babies is intense, and beyond comprehension, this was something that didnt bother her one bit, she likes killing and hurting children. This was also part of the no matter what clause. The agreement that I explain later on in this story, also known as the stupid plea bargain the devil used to get out of prison, or the no matter what agreement, which was changed and rewritten too many times per the devil not being satisfied with what it felt was "unfair" to it and it only, also stated, besides everything else, that everything was to be as it was before my birthmother and I had any contact, and at that time my full brother didnt know that the father who raised him, was not his biological father. He hadnt been told. He found out when I was living in Tennessee that his father was the same as mine.
I figured out that I carried this gene Cystic Fibrosis also, as when my daughter became pregnant in 2003, the doctors who regularly test for that now, found she was carrying this gene. As my daughters fathers family didnt have it, there were lots of kids and nobody had ever tested for this disease, or ever had been a carrier. I deducted that it must be me. As when I had my kids and when I had DNA tests done as a kid, when I was tested this test had not become available yet. The test became available in around 1992. And when I called my birthmom up to ask her about this when my daughter was pregnant and I told her that she had tested for being a carrier of Cystic Fibrosis, and did she know about this. Even though my brothers son had died of this disease, my birthmom denied having any knowledge of this gene at all, and nobody knew anything about it. I began to wonder how this could be, and I started wondering if my daughter might have a different father as this social worker had told me many years ago , and put up to this by the devil to cause trouble.
THE DEVIL AND SOME OF HOW I REMEMBERED THE REWARD I CALL THE ILISA
THE DEVIL MAKES MY BROTHER GERRY ARMSTRONG DISAPPEAR
My mother had two other children that had been adopted, one is Gerry Armstrong, and he is a little older than me. I figured this out as after I sent an email to gerryarmstrong.org tonight on February 10, 2011, and asked him if he had heard the news yet, the devil had an extreme reaction. I had wondered this before, and tried to figure this out. The devil had misinformation put on the internet about Gerry or more accurately or lies, and as the devil is watching me all the time, it was able to see that I was researching the idea of him being the brother I had heard about. I tried to find out how old he was, as I figured out he might be the Gerry that my other brothers and sisters had told me about, and I couldnt find out how old he was anywhere, which I did think was strange. And then I did find a lie put on the internet no doubt either by the devil itself, or at the instruction of the devil, and it said that he would be 62 years old now, and then I gave this idea up. I decided that there was no way I was right as my mother would have only been 6 years old, and so I ruled this out. Still I felt he had something to do with all of this, and I was sure of it, even speaking to the devil about it every day. I was trying to figure out how to act "in concert" with Gerry,as I had read this webpage about this. Finally tonight, after its extreme distress at the email I sent to Gerry, and the maps I made and added to the story of where the accident I was in with the nail occurred, just did the devil in, and I guess it has given up, finally. And I was told a long time ago a story about a brother who I now know was my uncles child, but they did not tell me his last name. And to get the best possible chance even he had to lie about everything.And he had to not only lie, but in a big way and publicly, so everything you read on gerryarmstrong.org is a lie. My other brothers and sisters told me that there was another Gerry out there, and described him, I know this is true, as I was told that he had to take some stupid settlement and not say anything about anything, he was silenced, and leave for Canada. I know I am right. They told me that one sibling who I now know was the devil, was "very embarrassing", and that it kept stealing money from people by ripping people off on stocks and telling them it was a great investment, and then next time they would see these people their money would be gone and it wouldnt face them again. They said it was ugly and didnt like animals. And they said the other one was in Scientology and not much else, except that they were both in a huge fight together, and I was going to get it as a result of this and have to figure the whole thing out on my own. And I think this situation is what its about. They were apologizing, and they said it wasnt my fault or anything, they just wanted me to know. And what they said helped to educated me so I wasnt so frightened. One statement that really helped me figure out what was going on, and how the devil was from Camp Quinibeck was that she said "you were right, she is an it". So what was said at camp and meant nothing at the time, not only helped me to see who was doing this to me, but became her name, as that is what I can the devil when I speak to it, and the devil answers to this name also. My brothers and sisters, said told me that there was some big fight and I was going to be in the middle of it way in the future, and whey I asked why,I was told I just was. And at the time they thought that the devil was actually a half sibling, as the DNA test hadnt been done yet, and we didnt know that it was really conceived of incest. It was the devils idea to have everyone take the stupid DNA test anyway, and all for sick reasons anyway. They were all glad to find out it wasnt related and thanked God. And even said there actually was a God after this news.THE DEVIL MAKES MY SISTER ANOTHER SISTER WHO WAS ADOPTED DISAPPEAR TOO
In addition to Gerry Armstrong my half brother and cousin, my mother also had another child by a friend of mine, and my mother had to place her for adoption too, and she was very upset about this, and she is the youngest, actually living right near us all this time. I think I was told her name only once and by someone who didnt even know we were related. I now realize that she is my sister, as the story that I was told matches her exactly. I was told she was even living on the same street as me, and at one time next door. And I have seen her around a lot, and she reminds me of myself when I was younger, and my daughter. And my daughter said she reminded her or herself also. I told her awhile ago that I thought she was my half sister, and she said she thought the way she looked at her, that she knew something. The devil had to keep all this quiet and threatened and silenced everyone with threats of treason and other lies, nobody could discuss anything with anyone. The devil used adoption to keep everyone apart, and its lies from catching up with it.One of my old windsor friends had been telling me that we are all related, and the next thing I knew, everyone was saying nobody said this, nobody said anything. It didnt happen, nothing happened, everything is fine. And thats the last I heard about all of this, and that was sometime in the1980s. I am glad to get the devil now, and that I have so much support. The devil is upset about me figuring this all out. And doesnt like me adding that Gerry and this other sister that lived next door to me are my siblings at all. It is having a severe reaction to this, and its upset, and shooting me, and moving me around like the seas are rough and I am in a ship being tossed about.THE DEVIL AND HATE FOR PERSONS CONNECTED TO ADOPTION
Gina is pictured above on the left with her Grampa Len soon after being reunited with our family. On the right is her gramma with her 7 aunts and uncles, and her mom on the right. Left to right in the front is Debbie, Theresa, Dennis and Kathy, with their mom in them middle. In the back left to right, is Tom, Jim (my kids dad) and Danny. Gina is one of Jims sisters children that was placed for adoption as a baby. I met her and she came to my house, as we both were adopted and were reunited with our birthfamilies we had a lot in common and to talk about. Somehow Gina must have found out something that threatened the devil, as she vanished, and I didnt know what had happened to her after our first meeting. The devil just told me something happened, but the devil wont say what.
Although the devil knew both of them, it chose to keep them apart for as long as the devil could. She is my kids cousin also. We hit it off real well and I told her something was up with the family, as I describe in this story, I just had no idea what it was. Now I do, and I look forward to seeing her again in the future. The devil has a need to separate families that is almost a focus of its life, I dont understand this need, but I see it repeated throughout my life with the devil. The devil just says that those touched by adoption are more fun to hurt, and it likes to.THE DEVIL AND KEEPING ERICS BIRTHFAMILY AWAY FROM ME
It was critical for the devil to keep my brother Eric separate from me and this whole situation as well, as his birthfamily is also included in this, and in a major way. Erics birthmom is a real nice person, and has been hurt very badly over this, as well as many others in his birthfamily, who are somehow connected to mine.In fact until the devil is locked up, the no matter what agreement she made when she got out of prison states that nobody is to know or act as if she is guilty, in fact they must lie, and do everything and anything to keep up the appearance that she is not guilty, and as a result this wont be verified until such time. The closer I get to the truth, and arresting her, the more violent and aggressive she becomes. And in fact if they do not abide by the stupid agreement, then she will get out of it ~again~, which I dont want.
This is how she wanted it, so she doesnt have to face anyone with the truth ever. The project is so secret, that only I was given the okay to do this, and only after I had been locked up for the 3 months per the stupid plea bargain, ie and the no matter what clause. The truth has a way of presenting itself over time, and the time will come for this, sooner then she thinks.My friends who did know, like one who visited me at the hospital were not allowed to discuss it with me or anyone at all ~ever~, it was a super secret. And I am enormously grateful for this and sorry for the inconvenience it has caused others, but we didnt anticipate this type of thing to ever happen, and who could?The experiment and the program I am still in, was not done for money at all, and all I was told is that the reward given to me from Dr Jose Delgado "might be worth something some day", nobody knew, and it has more than anyone would have ever imagined. I was told when the sort of experiment was done , that around age 50 or 51 or maybe 52 they would help me remember what had happened, and I am to turn 52 in about 6 weeks. One of the biggest reasons the devil has chosen to start this war now, and including as many people as possible, is because it knew it was going to be exposed to the light and seen for who it was anyway, and it hoped to kill me or even better have others do it for it. The devil could not stand to give up the control, heroin, attention, money and eventually its freedom. And would, and has stopped at nothing, and no one that has gotten in its way.
My parents and the doctor and myself decided to wait to tell me these traumatic things later as this would help soften the blow as I would be older and more able to understand what had happened. This was decided because even more shocking and disturbing things had happened around this time and before, that made it even more complicated and traumatizing. This person 666 has been implicated in the other things as well, as she has been sick for a long time, and some how uses me to traumatize. I was told the devils plan or criminal intent, was to create Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in me. She has a sick fixation or need to hurt me that I dont understand. I cant explain why she is like this, and I wonder today. Perhaps I always will.The important part at this time, is that someone named Gerri (Lyn) Schwann and or crowed (spelling unsure of) has been stealing my identity, and has said this was her. Due to a few vicious murders that she has committed where she has blamed and framed others, including in her family, who had nothing to do with anything but actually trying to help her and provide support, she has a criminal tracking chip placed inside of her by the government in the 1980s.
Having this criminal tracking device put inside of the devil, was part of her stupid plea deal, as some knew her to be guilty, but until I figured out the situation, and that she had stolen my identity, this was to keep track of her so she didnt get away once she was caught, as she is now. It is like a gps device so the government can keep track of her whereabouts.THE DEVIL IS MADE TO HAVE A TRACKING CHIP PUT INSIDE HER
From what I understand the devil told some people who didnt know the situation, that I had the stupid criminal device and she had the other device that I have. Most knew this story about me having the stupid criminal tracking chip to be false, but were not allowed to share this information per the stupid plea bargain it made to get out of prison the last time. What the devil has is called a RFID, HERE IS A LINK TO SHOW YOU WHAT ITS ABOUT.THE DEVIL MAKES PEOPLE DISAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE WHEN THEY KNOW THE TRUTH
As my friends and family would find out the devil is lying and hurting people including me, they would have to disappear from my life suddenly. There have been so many peoples lives, hurt and effected by this devil, in the 1980's, people told me that they were thinking of creating a support group for those that have been hurt by her. They would have to lie to me, insult me, provide false hope, mixup communication intentionally, commit unconscionable atrocities, and never to be seen again by me, as if they didnt care.These acts were made worse and more extreme on days such as family birthdays and especially Christmas we were ignored and or told stories how the rest of the family were all getting together, and we were not wanted. No gifts were ever given, or acknowledged when we sent them, no phone calls except to provide hurtful statements and usually to mix up communication as well.
I got an evil devil type of present for my birthday on March 2, 2003. My birthmother gave me a choice, although she didnt phrase it like this, this is what she meant, do I want to have contact with her, and spend my whole life lying and denying to preserve the family lies, or do I want to never hear from her again. I chose to never hear from her again. And of course the devil made her do this but at the time I didnt know this, birthdays are especially days for abuse, as I mentioned it hurts more on these days.
In addition to family and friends that are made to disappear when they, detect and then find the devil to be fabricating the whole story about how it has a nail in its head, and has the iLisa, news reporters are also a target. Once they know threatened with lawsuits, treason and whatever else, they are fired immediately, framed, blamed and then shamed publicly to appear they lost their jobs through their own irresponsible behavior. They are made to get fired, lose credibility, have their families broken up and made to lose everything they have if possible, or more.
THE DEVIL DIVIDES UP FAMILIES AND TRIES TO MAKE ENEMIES OUT OF EACH OTHER
The idea was to divide up our family with false information, then nobody would want to have contact after you are insulted and hurt intentionally with callus statements, and children were always the focus. It was really the devil speaking through them, having them do its dirty work. When its happening, we didnt really believe it was the devil, we actually believed for most of the entire time, that it was just sick, and the world had a lot of sickness. We had no means for discerning the truth, except a gut feeling, my intuition, this type of situation does help develop this. It helped me to watch and hear how people were saying things, not what they did or actually said, this was way more accurate. I did this unconsciously. Everyone was deceiving us, and that was the devils plan. It did distance us from them, and left us sad, especially my children as they got older and realized not every family was so torn apart as ours.The devil knows exactly what buttons to push in people, to get them under its control, and so they respond with the devils desired response.
She told people that I would ruin everything for them and herself, and what they are doing, to have nothing to do with me. This has become a self fulfilling prophecy, but only for her and her evil intentions. Indeed I have ruined everything for her. I used to wonder why special days, and holidays were such a focus for such abuse. Someone once said, they think these days are chosen because it hurts more on these days. It is hard to believe but that is what happened. After awhile there was almost nobody left. It has all been controlled and monitored by the devil, as if she is speaking through them, as if they are just marionettes. Right before one family member had gotten in this situation, she said, dont listen to what we say Lisa, just watch what we do, meaning that they were planning on setting her up to be arrested in the future. And now I know what she meant.The people that were allowed to stay in my life or new people that I met were all being controlled and monitored by the devil, all the time, in real time, day and night and every day. They had to make strange statements to me, like I didnt look well, they had to make me sick intentionally or assist her in doing so, they had to mis diagnose my family with diseases they didnt have, have doctors not provide enough anesthesia when medical procedures are done, not provide proper medical help when it is needed, and even and especially on children. The devil not only enjoyed this, but found it extremely amusing, the sicker it was the funnier she thought it was. Others were of course never allowed to mention that this was all contrived by the devil, as this would have taken the sting and power out of these actions. And the devil felt this made it even funnier. This was done to hurt as much as it could, and have it appear that others were just like that, and that we were to feel as if we deserved to be treated this way.
THE DEVIL HAS MUNCHAUSEN BY PROXY - A SICK NEED TO MAKE OTHERS SICK
Much of the abuse came through doctors, dentists, therapists, professionals, and those with power and authority, hospitals, medicines, medical procedures and facilities, using them to pretend to help, but actually they had to make things infinitely worse. Doctors were used instead of for helping and to get a patient well and healthy, were used to devalue, discredit and abuse said patient.Very strange things always occured if I actually needed help from shrinks or other professionals.
At one point in the 1980s when I went for therapy for a few months for weekly sessions at a local hospital to help me. After starting to like her, and trust her, she totally blew my mind. Suddenly and with no warning, and no known reason, and none at all, the therapist actually suggested that I suckle her breasts to help me. At first I thought maybe I heard her wrong, and asked her to repeat herself. When she did, and I heard her say this same thing again, patting her lap as if to entice me over to her. I went immediately for help and reported this to the person in charge.
Right away the person who was like a shrink supervisor came in the therapy room with me and this shrink, and she pulled up a little metal school type chair, and she asked the shrink "did you ask Lisa if she would suckle on your breasts", the shrink looking down said “yes, I did”. The supervisor person told her in no uncertain terms and a shocked tone of voice, “We, dont do things like this here”
Needless to say, I never went back to therapy with her or at that hospital ever again.
I remember leaving after this therapy session, and I walked out of the hospital feeling dazed, and in shock, in total disbelief and embarrassed, why did she do this, I couldnt understand, what is wrong with me? Now I know this was the devil, but I had no idea then, and even though the devil must have told her to do this, still what would make people not only listen to it, but actually do something like this?
As so many things have happened like this to me, and there are too many to mention, and that are so extreme and out of the context of normal reality, I forgot this several times, and even as I write this story, I almost left this out. It definitely helped to shape my feelings of shrinkotherapists and dislike of therapy, to the point of repulsion, its sick, and nobody should have to go through things like this.
The devil also has a preoccupation with accusing others, then framing and blaming others with the exact personality and abusive incessantly annoying behavior that the devil is doing itself. It actually describes itself best when it describes others in this way.
The devil used improper or unneeded medical advice and tests, unneeded injections given, and unneeded medical procedures, and she has an intense fixation on feces and making the patient sick with constipation, dehydration and improper medicines were routine for not only myself, but friends and others in my family. The exact things that she fears and would go to any length to avoid, are precisely the behaviors that she inflicts upon others. She tells me that one thing she gets out of all of her terrible behavior is that it satisfies an enormous need to get over on people, and one thing the devil cant stand at all, and really sets it off, is when people get over on it, such as now when she is caught. It cant tolerate this.A consistent factor present with this behavior, is that the devil acts as if its actually helping this patient, rescuing it from harm, and getting an incredible amount of positive attention for this behavior, when in actuality it is the intent of the devil to make said patient sick and then to keep it from getting better, and than to cover up the fact that the devil is the actual cause of the illness. I dont even think I had remembered this until I had read it, but I am certain I did ask this of him. I had searched the internet about him in 2007, and I found the following quote from a book or something, "And he had done experiments on children as young as 12", and that a boy had asked him if he would marry him and I think it may have said coming out of anesthesia", now I knew this was me, as nobody else had known, and I thought they were referring to my "want to f*uck you gene".THE DEVILS TERRORIZING BEHAVIOR INCREASES UNDER CERTAIN CONDITIONS
Using methods that I wont describe here, her terrorizing behavior even increases more dramatically, which is saying a lot, when I am cleaning my clothes or place up, if I am happy, or especially eating healthy foods and or when I am participating in healthy activities including and not limited to trying to find help by writing this story. Even if I pick up an apple to eat it, or going to the health club will do this. When I cook and drain boiled water for my spaghetti, it attempts to have me burned by the boiling water, suddenly knocking me sideways, and hoping I will spill it on myself, it does things like this all day, and all the time. It also shoots at my heart, hoping to cause a fatal heart attack, or trys to get me to throw up, the list is endless. Certain words I may say, and activities trigger its terrorizing behavior more than others. For example, it becomes far more aggressive and violent than other times, if I am praying, or even the mention of Jesus Christ or God, and if I am celebrating birthdays or other holidays. This will most certainly illicit the most extreme and excessive reactions of the devil, and other words or actions, such as being protected, protecting others, being safe, clean, happy and healthy are the ones that I also notice intense but not quite as severe reactions to. It is very bad conditioning for me, but so far it hasnt changed me. However, I dont like it at all, and I will be glad when this stops as well. It think this describes a textbook case of Munchausen By Proxy. And I believe this intent of the devil to be criminal. The devil couldnt stop this behavior to save its life, and we must step in and stop the devil ourselves. And now we are.Everyone was used for some reason by the devil. The people that I knew had to say my work was not up to par, humiliate me, set up car accidents, physically assault us, terrorize, disappoint children on special days so they feel unimportant to others, insult, trick, use derogatory words about various religions and ethnicities, lie and or hurt me, my friends, and usually my family. It thrives and feeds on these negative and sick interactions.
Children in the family or members who were actually sick were especially targets. It has a sick need to have others hurt, or made to hurt family, and have them not provided for properly, and that our needs are neglected, and especially to have others look on, to be helpless and not be able to do anything to help, especially family. The response and effect it wants to illicit, is it wants us to lose faith in others and the world, and to be made to feel hopeless about our lives, ourselves and our future. If this is not the devil itself, then I just dont know what is. For example, if someone in the family was actually sick or hurt, we were told we werent really hurt or just plain ignored, they would explain to us that they had more important but seemingly superficial things to do then to help us or assist us in any way. Even if it wasnt out physical health that was the target, it was our psychological well being that was to be terrorized and hurt. For example, one time an old friend saw me walking down the street, and in back of me was someone she barely knew, my old friend yelled hi whats going on, and she went running across the street to see her, as if great excitement to see them. I didnt see the person in back of me, and was glad to see this old friend, and that she was so glad to see me. This was done intentionally I now realize, as she was told to ignore me as if I was invisible to trick and hurt me like that. My old friend was just not like that at all. However, at the time I thought that I wasnt important to that old friend anymore, and that hurt as it was supposed to. Now I know it was the devils doing, and its behavior, not my old friends.THE DEVILS INSATIABLE AND CONSTANT NEED FOR HUGE DISPLAYS OF PUBLIC ATTENTION
Great public displays of abuse using as many people as possible, made the devil feel needed and important, no doubt to overcompensate for its severe lack of self esteem, draining everyone else of energy to reinforce the devils need to feel good about it self. The devil has an intense need for others to see it as a good person, mentally healthy and in a completely false light. And that others that are mentally healthy are to be seen as being mentally unstable, and in need of help. People that are threatening to the devils self esteem, who expose it to the light, and in particular try to help me, become targets to be made examples of, usually they are jailed, shamed, framed and publicly ridiculed for as many people to see as possible. This was all done to sustain the devils enormous, insatiable need to feel like its good, and that others are the bad ones. This was all done under the disguise of the devil stating that these things had to be done, they were either threatened with treason, sued, jailed, or told it was for the greater good of the world, and that she couldnt exactly explain why, just they had to do it. And they did.THE DEVIL AND THE CAMP COUNSELOR
One of the first signs that the devil was to become sick like this, and a sociopath, goes back to when it was a little boy, and I knew it at Camp Meadowlark.I do have some good memories about this camp, and I will start with those. One counselor taught me how to make bread, and I had never done this before, which was a lot of fun. And I remember one night at this camp as a practical joke somebody snuck in and put silver paint on everyones nose, in the whole camp. The paint didn't wash off with water. When everyone went to breakfast it was quite a sight. Almost everyone had a silver stripe down their nose.
We used to sing Kumbaya, and other camp songs. And what I also remember doing at this camp, was picking blueberries by the barrel full, and I ate them by the million while I picked them. I still love blueberries and never get tired of eating them. And besides they are blue which is my favorite color. Then we would have awesome Berkshire mountain blueberry pancakes for several days. One counselor,the one who taught me how to make bread, knew the devil when it was a little boy at this camp, and later knew us both as girls at Quinibeck, and knows our family and what is going on now. The devil really lied and took advantage of this counselor, the counselor really helped her out, and had no idea that the devil would want to hurt her and others so badly. She has recently figured out the devil is deceiving everyone and in a huge way, including herself, And the counselor could never tell before that I have a nail in my head, and the iLisa and more, now that she has, she is a huge part of the alliance to get the devil arrested, and is helping a lot. I really appreciate her help, I find that its amazing that the counselor is still around, and still knows us both.This same counselor that the devil and I still know in town here, saved me a few times, once I was playing softball at Camp Quinibeck, and I was running towards first base after being up at bat, and hitting the ball, and I fell hard on my head after being tagged out on my way to first base and knocked down, my head hit two rocks on sort of a ledge or something. She walked me up to the infirmary, and she followed me up a steep, windy rocky path to get me checked out, as I was knocked down hard and it was my head and it hurt bad. I lost consciousness for a second, and fell backwards, and would have hit my head again if she hadnt been right behind me and luckily caught me. And then after being at the infirmary I was taken to the doctor, and I wasnt allowed to fall asleep as they said I might not wake up, this went on for at least a few days, I had a serious concussion and my head continued to hurt a lot. And for the next few weeks I heard a high pitched loud sound and I had a terrible headache, and it was due to the concussion. I had to stay in my bed at camp, and I wasnt allowed to do anything at all. I think this was the first year when I also had the food poisoning and the health department was called in that this happened.
In fact as a coincidence, I ran into other people right here in town from Camp Quinibeck when I was teaching someone, and one of my favorite students. I was teaching how to search for things on the internet in the 90s, and I by chance said "I will use a camp I used to go to as an example, and I typed in Camp Quinibeck at www.yahoo.com". Thats when she said in surprise, that she was a camper there, and she was there at the same time too. What a small world.
And of course as is protocol and usual for the devil, and that this camper is an exceptionally nice person, she was threatened and hurt in a mean and bad way. I know the devil scared her badly in hindsight, as when I went back to her house to continue her computer lessons, she was real upset, as if she had been crying, and said to me that she was real sorry, and I didnt know why but I didnt ask I just listened to her, and that she thought I wasnt going to come back and she looked forward and enjoyed her lessons and me as her teacher. As I did her. I know she had to have had something sick said to her by the devil, as all good relationships that I have, and with anyone in particular who could get to the truth are viciously attacked. And I know intuitively that she was.
The devil says that this nice person from camp and here in town, is out to get the devil, and I am not surprised and welcome her aboard.
The nice camp counselor that knew me since Camp Meadowlark, and the devil even longer, wasnt even allowed to tell me that she knew me, and as I started remembering other events in my life, I began to remember her too. Besides the devil admitted this using methods described in the It movie. Even if the devil denied this, I wouldnt believe her, I just know it. And now the counselor is part of the camp to stop the devil as she can see that the devil is real sick. The devil had conned her, and she didnt know the devil liked to make people sick intentionally, and that it had Munchausen By Proxy, which is a very rare disease. As the devil is a sociopath, she didnt and couldnt even suspect this. There were red flags that the devil was to have problems, clearly signs of a future sociopath even back then. It all started because we all had chores to do at the camp, and the jobs were given out by the counselors. It had always been lazy and in need of special attention, so it was given jobs it chose, and forgoing less desirable ones it didnt want. I had been given the less desirable ones, until one day, I had requested to take care of the campers animals, a job that I had wanted.
THE DEVIL SLAUGHTERS THE CAMPERS PETS AT CAMP MEADOWLARK
The next morning when I went in to feed and care for the animals, each one had been slaughtered and left in their cages, each killed in a different sick way. I remember the rabbit had a scissors stabbed in its back, one had been shot multiple times with what looked like a bb gun, another had a knife in it. It was surreal, and little did I know that this devil would continue to choose me to terrorize for this many years to come. From what I was told, it even implicated me in this atrocity. And it would be many years before we knew who did this, and many more casualties and peoples lives would be effected.Another example of what happens if the devil is seen in the light of who it is, is that in the early 1990s it actually almost strangled one of its kindest and nicest doctors to death, and would have if the police had not been called. And then the whole thing was shut up, everyone was threatened and silenced, told that they would be sued, jailed for treason, and that this had to be done to protect national security.
This is why its so important to correct this mixed up situation, many other examples I cant print here but are known, and would shock the reader infinitesimally more than these examples given on the internet.What is happening now to the devil, is its worst nightmare, in particular having everyone getting together to have it arrested to stop it, and that I am writing this story to expose its evil, and warning others, it has never had to face anyone with the truth. It was over optimistic that it would get away with things forever, and pushed its luck for the last time, and now its caught. Nothing seems to upset it more.
As I mentioned the devil stole my identity and made up its own reasons why it couldnt prove it was the one given the reward from Dr Delgado. Instead of stating the real reason for the program and what has happened, how it was done for good intentions, instead it blamed others, and complained that it was made to participate in this program against its will. And wouldnt speak about the reward, or show anyone how it helped or anything. Those in the know told me the devil compartmentalizes its life, and has everyone divided up, and that the left hand doesnt know what the right is doing. I was in my 20s then, and I didnt understand what they meant. Now I do.
IMPORTANT INFORMATION ON SOCIOPATHS AND HOW THEY GO UNDETECTED
It pretended to be so upset, that even asking anything about the reward, was wrong and immoral, and saying how since it had a nail in its head, and been forced to participate in this program against its will, it should not be asked such hurtful, distressful and upsetting questions. Being a Sociopath it could do this convincingly well. This is how it got away with this. And I cant blame them for not trying to make the devil cooperate or wondering why it wouldnt talk about the accident or try to prove anything any more than they did. I wouldnt either. I had a hard time believing that this could happen, that everyone could lie like this, and about such important things, that I was convinced. After all, if it was true then it was just too terrible, my view of the world would have to change. How could things be this unjust? So therefore, I reasoned that it couldnt be true, everyone was not lying, and I went about my life. Sociopaths have no conscience, so they can do almost anything, and it just doesnt bother them. They are so against everything that makes us human and human nature, that its hard to understand, I just cant.WHAT HAPPENS TO THE DEVIL WHEN IT GETS PUT AWAY
The good news is that once its caught and put away, it gets this behavior back at it, times ten or more. Thats what the no matter what agreement says. Those that knew the truth and that the devil was lying, stealing and impersonating me insisted on this when the stupid plea bargain was set up, and I am forever grateful that they did.THE DEVIL MONITORS MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING I DO
The devil has been monitoring my life, everything that I do, everyone that I see and interact with, all of my communication and way more, and in ways thought to be impossible, and through ways that I wont explain. I have absolutely no sense of privacy, as this was only supposed to be done by trained professionals in the program, and under the supervision of Dr Delgado. And that a sociopath such as her has invaded this, is maybe one of the worst most inhumane parts of her terrorizing for me.THE GOOD PEOPLE ARE HELPING AND MONITORING MY LIFE SINCE THE EXPERIMENT BEGAN-PART ONE OF THIS TOPIC, SEE PART 2
When the devil hijacked the ability to do this, and did so by lying, and taking advantage of people concerned about my well being, using a fake crisis and everyone took the devils side, the only people to help me, was the Church of Scientology. The Church of Scientology is watching and looking out for my well being, quietly as it was supposed to be. I am very grateful for this. . LATER IN THE STORY
As I mention later in the story, others are always watching and monitoring the situation, b They are working and protecting me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week since I was almost 12 years old, and since the experiment began. Everywhere I go, everything I do, so I am never alone. They are keeping an eye on the devil also, its a huge project and we have needed a lot of help. I owe my life to these good people, and grateful for their hard work and determination to not let the devil get me.
THE ILISA PROJECT AS DRAWN BY JIM CORCORAN SEEN ABOVE, COMPUTER WITH BUTTERFLIES
THE DEVIL EXPLOITING GOOD INTENTIONS-BELOW
Its very sick and I couldnt feel anymore exploited and violated than this, and its behavior is just beyond comprehension that anyone would do this. This must be stopped as soon as possible. It is my opinion and others, who have been silenced with hush money that she is a violent and dangerous Sociopath besides having other psychological conditions, and I ask the readers help in stopping this situation as soon as possible.
THE DEVIL CREATES FIGHTS AT CAMP QUINIBECK THAT DIVIDE FAMILY FOR DECADES OVER A STUPID LIE
This person Gerri Crowe had gone to this camp named Quinibeck with me as a girl, and before had gone to Camp Meadowlark with me as a boy. I didnt understand or remember her as a boy as she had done something violent and sick there as well, and besides she didnt tell anyone that she used to be a boy or anything about that. It was a secret. Also I didnt understand that people can be whats called intersex, born with both with the genitalia of both male and female, which she is. When I say in the Quinibeck story that "I remember that also", I meant that I remember being told I called her an it. I didnt mean that she was an it or mean to call her a name, and didnt understand that one can have both genitalia. I wouldnt have and didnt mean that.
The devil started several huge fights at this camp
Quinibeck with my adoptive family that lasted for decades and actually until
recently, as some of my adoptive moms family were sent to this camp and were campers too,
going back to the early 1900's. In fact going to
this camp was a tradition for my adoptive moms side of the family, all the girls
had gone, my mother, her mother, my great aunt and cousins. I was never allowed
to see them or hear anything about them again after this, it was as if they didnt exist.
My adoptive cousins whom I had never met, and the devil who was supposedly my half
sister, and I were in a swim class together, and that is when this
altercation started with me supposedly calling the devil an it. I was
blamed for anything that happened where the devil was involved at all. Not much
has changed until recently. The devil even had contact with these cousins even
though I didnt, and had them believing her lies and story as well, its only in
the last few months that they found out they had been lied to all these years.
It had caused an enormous senseless family fight that caused not only this fight, but
set off a chain of events that caused many subfights that involved many other
people, and that also has all of them against her now, as they participated in
this fight, wasting their time fighting about nothing, and putting all them and
all these other people on the exact wrong side of this fight. Among other things
too numerous to mention, the devil got them violently
ill back in the 1980s, had them involved in stupid research studies that they
found out years later were fake, and had been blaming me all these years,
believing the devils act, and saying I was the
one who put the nail in the devils head and put all responsibility on me for
everything that divided the family. Now they know the truth, and are part of the
alliance against her. I am sorry for what they have been through, and how we
have all been deceived.And
this is how I ended up leaving the camp early. I think another reason, but less
so, is that my adoptive mother was also intersex, and
I wasnt really told as it was considered sort of taboo to discuss, especially
back in the 1960's. My adoptive
parents did tell me once, and it created such a wave as it was to be a family
secret, that they changed their mind when I told my friend Judy, and just said
never mind, it wasnt so. It was embarrassing and I didnt realize this, I didnt know.
I think the main reason nobody brought any of this up again, is that after the experiment on me had begun, nobody including Judy, a very nice person, (who it has known the whole time, and about the project as well since right before the experiment began) and who had been my only
friend who had visited me at the hospital when I had the nail in my head, were
allowed to bring up anything that might trigger memories to come back about the nail incident or the reward
or anything. This was part of the plan and experiment. And it would have ended
the experiment if they had. It not only knew this friend from Larchmont and the
surrounding suburb, but knew most of my friends, and their friends
friends. So it knew enough to steal my identity, and who to threaten to
silence the whole thing.THE DEVIL STEALS JIMS KIDS AND THEY ARE MADE TO DISAPEAR WITH THEIR MOM
In the beginning of 1979 Jim moved in with my boyfriend Kevin and I, I think he had been kicked out of where he had lived, and put in a mental institution against his will, and I believe this was the devils doing now. Kevin and I were planning on getting married at the time.
THE DEVIL BRUTALLY KILLS HELEN BRACH AND MORE
It even killed Helen Brach, and covered the whole thing up, blaming others, when in fact it was all her. My friends from Windsor Mt. were shocked, and threatened as they found out, and even saw her cut up her body in a wood shredder. 666 would not let Helen die, kept reawakening her, and beating her up again and again. Its horrid, and the details just get worse, more shocking and gruesome, and I will spare the reader from this. Her lies go deep and far, and her time is up.Some of my friends had not only seen her cut up, but I was told from one of them you are going to find out what happened to you, by reading it in the news, what a terrible way to find out, and then he apologized, and after he set the devil up in New York, and they caught her shooting at my friend, and running from house to house to do it, and they did stop her from continuing this to him, they couldnt stop her for good, only I can. And they are so glad to have me get her for good, that they are celebrating the news. He is a huge part of the alliance to get her, and is helping now. I know him both from New York where I lived, and at Windsor Mountain School. He used to visit me at school and after having so much fun there, he decided to go there too. He would not have found out about the nail in my head or the iLisa, as I didnt know him until I was about 13 years old, and I had forgotten. It was real secret I see now, the program didnt want to start any trauma either physical or psychological as it was thought that it might start a problem, and that was the plan . Since he knew all my friends also from New York, he would have found out the nail in the head and iLisa out years later. And the devil told him that it was something else, to scare him and control him. He is a real nice guy, and is kicking her ass now. The devil cant stand this old friend, he must be relentlessly after her.
Besides losing this friend that I also knew from New York and Windsor Mountain School, I lost another good gentle sole of a friend, who I even lived with for awhile after we all graduated from school. This one continued to have contact with my other Windsor friends and others even though I wasnt allowed to, therefore she must have run into the devil as well, she later moved on to a ship called "The Freedom", she is the second one from the right in the back row of this picture I am linking to which I used to visit and my brother lived on the ship as well. I got my Christian religious education there, it was sort of a Christian commune, my other friend that had the devil arrested in New York, as I just described from Windsor also used to go visit the Freedom. My brother Eric is pictured below on "The Freedom", second from the left.
And one day she told me that something really terrible was going to happen in the future to me, and she had a tone to her voice that sounded different than I had ever known before with her, but got to know as the way everyone I knew sounded, before they disappeared after the devil hurt them and threatened them. She was real upset and, she wanted me to know that she had left me a video for me to help me, and the federal law enforcement people would know this, and that this would help me in the future, and she would see me again even thought it may be many years, she wouldnt be able to see me again or speak to me, and she didnt want to do this, and she was sorry. Since I didnt know about the nail or the iLisa at the time that I knew her well, as that was when I was a teenager, she wouldnt have found out from me, but I am certain she knows now. And knowing her and the devil, the devil would hate her with all its sick might.
And as the devil always does, attack the nicest people, my closest friends, my family too, and then they cant speak or have any contact with me again. I dont know, but I think and as sure as I can be by from what I have been told as others in my life disappeared, that she is after the devil too and would be in a big way, and I will be really glad to see her again.
And eventually I started remembering this story and others, how my friends had vanished, and that is exactly what happened years later. I remembered that I was to find out about what happened in my life in the news. Again one memory, set off another, and a chain of events that had been closed off deep in my mind began to unfold. I was watching tv, and reading the newspaper in the year 2005, when I saw an article and news show on the Helen Brach murder, and new information had turned up. Suddenly I remembered seeing the event that had been described in the new information that had been revealed. I knew that I was there, and that is what this old friend had said to me. I would find out what happened to me, by reading the news, and I just had. Maybe this was it, this is what the whole thing was about, it was frightening to read, maybe I was better off keeping silent. I didnt know what to do. However the more I thought about it, the more I realized that this was not the whole or complete truth that I had just read, and I started totally misbelieving what I read and what was revealed publicly, and I never believed the news stories again after this. One of my boyfriends from Windsor Mountain and I went for a drive one evening, he took me to a horse stable or something. And I saw from a distance, a rolled up rug being moved from the trunk of a car to a station wagon, or the other way around, they moved from right of my vision to the left of what I could see, the rug was sagging in the middle from what looked like it might have been too bulky or heavy. I believe one of the vehicles was a pink cadillac, I know I did see one there, I am just not sure now if it was at this time. Then someone shot a gun, and I heard about 2 or 3 shots, but I didnt really know it was a gun or that there was a body in the rug. I wouldnt have thought that, but now I did.
Then the next thing I remember is this boyfriend and I leaving quickly in his car, as if something had happened terrible, and he had that sound in his voice that I hear right before people disappear from my life, he sounded different than I had ever heard him before, and he said to me" I cant believe that they did that", then as he was driving away into the night he asked me "how many shots had I heard" and I said 2 and he said 3, or it was the other way around, he said 2 and I said 3. Then what he said to me next may be the only reason I remember this at all. He said "remember that, it may be important in the future".
My boyfriend dropped me off where I lived, and I went back to school, and didnt sleep that night, which was not unusual really, as I was only 17. A day or so later, I heard on the news, that this person Helen Brach had turned up missing, and somewhere in my head, I wondered if it could be what I saw, but discounted it almost immediately, as I had no idea what I had actually seen, and no reason to. Not even that it was definitely a gun, only shots or loud firecrackers or something.
I was wondering what happened to my boyfriend, and where he was, why I hadnt heard from him, as there were no cell phones or anything yet, and I had no real way of contacting him at this time. I had to wait for him to come see me and I would ask him what happened then. Finally after a few days, I am not sure how many, maybe up to five days later, he got ahold of me, and I asked him what had happened, he was very cool, as if nothing had happened. So I put this out of my memory until then, when I read it in the newspaper and saw it on the news.
Other friends as I mentioned also told me things, but I never tied the events together, nobody ever mentioned Helen Brachs name, or the devils either. So I didnt know what happened, and just went on with my life. I did wonder why I never saw my friends again, especially since I lived in the area where a lot of them were from. I decided that they must have gotten in some sort of trouble, and I didnt want to hurt them, so I didnt spend a lot of time trying to uncover their whereabouts.
It was only in the last few years, that I have put the pieces together, and figured his out, there are so many layers of lies, and lies on top of those lies, that it would be hard for anyone. This is not my expertise, or interest. I dont like violent stories, not even fake ones. Especially not this close to my life.The story as best that I can tell from what I was told, and now pieced together, is this. The devil killed Helen Brach, by beating her up over and over, and when she would regain consciousness, she injected her with something to reawaken her, not let her die, then beat her up viciously again, inject her again with something to keep her from dying. I am unsure of how many times this was done, but I was told it was repeated. Then the devil somehow in a very bloody scene, cut up her body and put the parts through a wood shredder. This information all came to me by friends, and so this much I would say is true. The rest I dont know, as this was told to me from the devil, using ways described in the It Movie, I dont know what she did with the remains after the body was shredded. The devil had told me through ways described in the It Movie as if she was bragging, that she framed her father, and said he covered it up, who had been a cop, and that he actually had nothing to do with it. Then she said she fed the remains to Helens dogs. Not long after I remembered this, and did my research on the topic, I began to contact law enforcement to let them know what I had seen. On February 17, 2007 I went to law enforcement in person, and they casually took my information, and said they would get back to me if they needed me, and then never called. Others told me that although, I think I may have seen this, I didnt, and that I may have seen something like the event I described, it wasnt possible that I had been there. I even had the description of the stable wrong, so therefore everything I had said was invalid, and not relevant. Besides he said, that they have a lot of people who think they saw things, and they just didnt. Of course I realize now that the devil had made them say these things, as they had the nail in head and iLisa story completely backwards. They thought the devil had the nail in the head, and the iLisa device, even thinking that she was made to participate in this program against her will. Which as I mentioned is completely backwards, as I wanted and was honored to participate in this program. The people in the iLisa project know I saw this happen, as they would have been watching me, and they know I did. But due to the secrecy of the program, there was no way, they could say anything or do anything, they couldnt. And this is a huge reason why she was able to exploit everyone and the whole situation.IT ON THE MESSAGE BOARD LYING ABOUT THE HELEN BRACH MURDER AND ME TRYING TO FIND THE TRUTH
Here is It speaking about the murder and lying and being "goldy" as well as other names to appear that others were communicating that were involved, when they werent, and me only as "NiteMare" on a message board, it of course was watching me write, and at the time I didnt know this yet. Here is another link to It on the message board previous to my taking part and posting, I just read it to see what additional information I might find. It is doing the same thing using different personas all lying and to make it seem as if there was more than one person doing this., only I was reading this not knowing she was watching me yet, or that I have a nail in my head, the iLisa or anything, and the devil was coaxing me from other message boards so it couldnt be proven, to participate in the discussion. I had blocked most of this from my memory, until recently. I just didnt know where my old friends had gone, the more I remembered, the more memories started pouring out. Like one memory, reawakened another, and that one another, and it was like a chain of events were unfolding and becoming conscious again. One lie of hers has covered up another lie, and that lie with another and so on. Thats what I was told, and I now see this is true.. And thats how we got here today.My family was very protective of me, and didnt want to unfold the nail in my head story, they were told that a trauma could start a problem again, and they didnt want to risk this. And they had waited a long time to get me, and wanted me a lot. I had been adopted at 1 month old.
THE DEVIL INTIMIDATION, BULLYING AND LYING
The advantage to lying about everything was great for the devil, since I didnt know who is starting lies about me, I couldnt really defend myself or tell my side of the story. This is key. Remember if someone is lying to you, they are trying to control you.
They wanted to be sure I paid for trying to find the truth and for anyone helping me, and getting people thrown out of their house or to lose money or your job are all fair game. Having no money or job makes you less credible and less likely to even try to fight back.
In other words metaphorically if the devil being a coward, just kicks me in the shins, and runs and hides like a bully before I know who did it, they get to fight me, and I have no way of defending myself. Bullies always pick on others that can't or aren't able to defend themselves.
Another method of intimidation that the devil uses is if you help me or anyone in Scientology, then you become a target too. This goes for family members in particular, the effect of this methodology is to divide and turn family against each other. It is quite effective.
MY BROTHER ERIC AND THE DEVILS NEED TO HURT HIM AND HIS FAMILY
Above is a picture of my brother Eric and I. He was also adopted from the same adoption agency when he was about 2 months old, but we thought from separate families. We found out many years later, that we are actually related by birth. And it was trying to keep everyone separate to maintain the lies. Many called it damage control. Others called it a scam gone bad. The devil also really likes breaking up families, it enjoys this enormously. And it satisfies a sick need it has as well.Erics family has been separated multiple times in multiple ways by the devil. This was done by it lying, and threatening, using different methods for different family members. Eric was set up and then framed and lied to for one thing and put in prison by the devil.
As I said Eric and I are actually adopted from families that are related by birth, cousins or something. So although the devil likes flying near the flame of danger, it thrills it, it trys not to actually get burned up by the fire, this time the devil got too close and dove head first in the flames, and it crashed and burned up, as its caught.
DNA TESTING PROVES THAT THE DEVIL IS NOT RELATED TO ME AT ALL, AND THEN THIS IS SILENCED
This person Gerri was thought at the time to be my half sister. It would be decades later, in the late 80s or early 90s, that we would find out through DNA testing that she was not related by birth at all. No relation whatsoever. And in fact was actually a product of incest, having her father also be her grandfather.THE DEVIL AND THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY
The devil had been educating me on the Church of Scientology, and telling me scary things and had me very frightened and confused as to who was helping me, if anyone, and not until a few years ago did I find out the cult was actually the only ones helping me, this program is that secret. And what I found out later was a lot of what I had been reading on the internet was actually fabricated by the devil itself, it spends relentless hours making things up, as it has nothing else to do, and knows the cult knew the truth, and while I was working and doing regular things like most people it was trying to make them look bad. And as it was allowed what is called the "best possible chance", in the stupid plea bargain it could even say and do anything with no recourse for the church, including make up lies, and many of the crimes and horrible stories were actually the devil doing these things and framing this cult. The devil really focuses its hates this church a lot, to the extreme, and has been threatening them for many, many years, that has turn into decades, and would do almost anything to frighten them, or hurt them as they know the truth about the devil ie murders, arsons. They know my whole family and that the devil is lying about the nail in its head and having the iLisa and is the one committing treason, the Church of Scientology knew this about me, before I even remembered it. And the devil knows they had been planning for many years, that in the future they were going to bring its lies into the light. I had to figure this out first on my own, and as it is so secret, not even my parents could tell me this nobody at all. And since the devil knew that since I was 12 years old when the experiment began, I was going to be told anyway somehow by the time I turned 52 years old, and I havent yet, the devil decided to try to destroy everyone, including me, and at any cost to maintain this lie before I found out anyway.The reason that complicates this is that the devil has committed so many murders, it is already condemned to die, and so it has nothing to lose by committing as many deaths or anything as possible to keep the lies it has been telling for many years, it can only be put to death once anyway. And as its really sick, and a sociopath, it has no conscience and worse yet enjoys hurting and and killing people. It especially gets a thrill out what it thinks of as "getting over on people". Now you and I cant understand this, but this is something that it thrives on, relishing the moments of people begging for their lives, and then denying them this, and having what it feels is the power to take that away from them, hurting their families at the same time. The devils biggest fear and what it wants to avoid more than anything is being put to death, as it would really much rather spend its whole rest of its life in prison. Even it were sent to a prison like we send terrorists to in other countries such as in extraordinary rendition, it says this all the time to me. However, it is asked about this, I would expect it to lie, to get of this situation, and at all costs, as it has done with everything evil it has done almost its whole life. When I ask it if it would consider taking a lie detector test about all the thinks it lies about including this, it absolutely refuses this, and would have to be forced to by the courts if anyone had any questions on the validity of any of its testimony or statements.
It thinks that if its put to death, then "people are getting over on the devil", and even though this makes no sense to me, or maybe you, it is how this sociopath thinks.
And as per the stupid no matter what agreement the devil is allowed until I find out the truth, and now I have, to slander them, libel them or anything to get what is called "the best possible chance". And the devil has taken advantage of this situation, and words can not describe how far this has gone.
At one point many years ago, in around 1996, I even got pulled into the police station and questioned about a message board, or newsgroup called Alt Religion Scientology, and I didnt know anything about it, the devil had told people that I had something to do with it, when it was the devil all this time. I had no idea what or why I was accused of anything. At one point the devil murdered and committed arson to several people in Scientology, and they couldnt say or do anything about this framing, and blaming of the cult, as nobody is allowed to because of the threat of treason. And the devil actually had me doing secret computer work for it, on some of these murders, and it was not until about ten years later, did I find out, it was watching me, and saying it was the one with a nail in its head, and had the iLisa also. It has gotten away with so much. All I know is now that I know and have confirmed this several years ago, and to my surprise, I am very grateful that Scientology are the ones helping me. I am still upset that the devil had so many people running around trying to hurt me, and had so much loud, angry, and aggressive help for it. The devil gets very angry when it knows its losing. And when you are in the right, you dont have to go around and act like that. I really dont know what I would do if the devils friends had been the only ones around. I thank Scientology all the time.
THE DEVIL, INVESTIGATIONS, AND THE POLICE DEPARTMENT
Early in the year in 1996 my dad told me that he had lung cancer, we didn’t know how long he had to live. He started calling me every day instead of every month, and telling me he loved me. It was nice to hear from him all the time, it was sad that I was now going to lose him too. My mom had already passed away a few years before, and amongst a storm that the devil created, telling everyone including my birthfamily somehow that my mom was not dying, and then after a month, there was so much lying due to the stupid “no matter what agreement” that although I knew my mom was dying in a few months or so, my dad actually did not.And my sister from my birthfamily had to tell me at the demand of the devil. “We happen to know that she is not dying as if she thought me saying my mom was going to die soon was funny. Not only was this true, but I got no support while my mom was dying from anyone. And then she died one month later on Christmas night. My parents had been married almost fifty years. And after she died, as far as family, he only had me and the kids left.
He told me that its really important to tell the people you care about, how much you love them, and to do it often. And he had. He made a big deal out of this. It was his personal sermon to me before he died. I have taken this advice to heart and I am trying to learn from this, and practice these words of wisdom.
The kids and I had planned to go see my dad the summer of 1996. My kids, Lenny and Kathy were really psyched to go. Kathy and Lenny always thought my dad was like Disney land to them.
The day before we were to leave for New York for what was to be our normal summer vacation, my dad called and said he wasn't feeling well. He thought maybe we should reschedule our visit. It was August 12, 1996.
I told my dad the kids were all packed and that they would be back in school in a few weeks, they would freak out if I told them we werent going. They waited all year to see him. We had to come see him now. So he said maybe he would get better, he thought he would.
The next day when the kids and I arrived in New York, my dad was not there to pick us up. I had come to visit him my whole life, and he was never one time late. He was always there waiting for me.
Then I saw Doris, an older red haired lady that had lived next door to my dad, and before my mom too for twenty years. She had been great friends with my mom when she was alive, so I knew her pretty well.
Doris was running up to us from the distance. The kids were standing beside me with backpacks and suitcases in tow. Doris said to me sort of out of breathe "Lisa, I'm so sorry , your daddy is in the hospital." My first reaction was, oh no, not again, maybe this is it. My mind was flooded with memories of losing my mom four years before.
We got in her car and went right to the hospital. The same hospital where my mom had died. My dad was in intensive care and the kids were not allowed in. I gave them some change and left them by the soda machines.
Doris and I went in and saw my dad. He was totally out of it. Machines were beeping, tubes everywhere. I went up to him, trying not to cry. He knew I was there but he was barely with it. I was totally starting to freak out.
When we left the hospital, Doris drove us to my dads place which was next door to her place. She let us in my dads place with her key, and helped us get unpacked. The kids were being very quiet. The only times the kids were ever quiet was when they were asleep or very frightened.
We planned to return to the hospital after we had something to eat. The kids and I went back to the hospital later with Doris. It was so nice of her to be there for me. I took her advice and followed in her footsteps.
I called my birthmother from my parents house for support and advice. Knowing she was a registered nurse, she could explain to me what was going on. I didn't believe the doctors, they kept saying that he was getting better.
My mom wasn't home when I called, and I was becoming too depressed to make the call again. I was also afraid my dad would see the phone calls on the bill when he got home. I didn't want to make him mad at me. I wasn't going to lie about it either. And after all the fighting with the devil, but I didn’t know why, he didn’t want me to speak to them.
I was completely losing it. Being at my parents house, without either of them there was lonely and upsetting. My mothers things were exactly how they had been when she had died. It was like it had been frozen in time. The magazines, the newspaper clippings all dated back to 1992. I tried to keep things as normal as I could so it didnt freak out the kids.
The next day when the kids and I went to the hospital my dad was a little more alert. He told me to get the kids their own fishing rod from "Poppy" which is what the kids called him. We always went fishing with him when we visited. Lenny looked forward to fishing with Poppy all year long.
I called my boyfriend on the phone to tell him it didnt look like we would return on time. I was looking for a sympathetic ear to listen to me. I was freaking out watching my dad hollering for oxygen. My dad was asking me for ice chips, sometimes they would let him have them and sometimes not. It depended on which nurse was on duty. I had no idea that the devil was around watching me, and trying to make things worse for my dad, how or why would I possibly think this?
My dad kept pleading with me "just please let me have them, please Lisa, take the cup and go get me some ice chips. Please." So if the mean nurse was on duty, who wouldnt let him have the ice, then I would have to sneak in the nursing area when nobody was watching, fill up his cup with ice chips and bring him the ice.
Next he wanted me to fix the oxygen machine, he said it wasnt working. I would call the nurse, and they would pull me aside and tell me the oxygen is up full, we cant give him any more. I did not tell my dad what they said. He had told me when the time came, he did not want to know if he was dying. We had discussed it over the last year and it was understood.
My boyfriend, is the son of the shrink that the devil tried to strangle and kill, and he was listening to the devil because he and his dad had the story backwards, and so he had to become very angry with me, when I called him. I said "he is dying I know it." I thought he was just upset that I wouldnt return on time. He even hung up on me, saying "he is not dying."
My dad was dying now. I didn't want to be insulted again. It was like the whole thing when my mom died was happening all over. Why am I always defending myself when I need support instead? What is wrong with people?
My dad died September 2, 1996. I just sat in bed and cried and watched tv. I didn't stop crying for days from the time I woke up. I didn’t even tell my boyfriend at all, only my kids and their dad knew, and my boyfriend didn’t even call me, nobody did.
And even though my dad had just died, I was still working. I think I was in shock, and I had to have money to pay my bills and for food. So one of the clients that I was working for were some private investigators called me, and needed some work done, actually it was the devil having other people do its dirty work, but I didn’t know this then. I had no idea that these people that I was doing consulting for, were researching such a controversial subject which was murders and other crimes that the devil was trying to cover up. And they did not inform me of this, I just needed the money and so showed up for work which was at their private home.
I had been working for them for quite some time, and a year before, the end of 1995, I was at their house working on the computer, and watching tv at the same time. On the news, a story about Scientology came on TV. Someone had just died down in Florida. I said I thought that somehow this was relevant to what they were researching. I knew nothing about Scientology or anything, nobody said anything to me about it, or if they did, they would later deny it, and attack me as if I was crazy or something, adamantly denying they said anything.
Of course I know now, the devil had been watching me, lying about everything, and knowing they had the truth, it had to keep me away at all costs from finding out who might actually help me. I now believe one of these secret investigations was actually the Lisa McPherson trial, which the devil has admitted and implicated in. At the time I had no idea that I was working on an actual murder, or anything. I was doing work mostly in a program called Quicken, which just keeps track of where you spent money, and where you got money from. So I had no idea at that time.
I asked them why I would be thinking that the murder that I saw a news story on, would have anything to do with what I was researching for them, the secret investigation that I was working on. They said something about me being highly intuitive and telepathic. I went back to working on the computer. They told me that out of coincidence that I was actually in the files that they were reviewing. I now know that they had the story backwards, and a lot of the information was lies, and that they did not know the truth. They told me that, it was a total coincidence that I was in their files, as I was already their computer consultant they said before this all happened.
They said that they needed to help me, and and as I was part of two of the investigations they were out of coincidence working on, they asked me for list of every, doctor and dentist that I had ever gone to. They needed to see my medical records, and through much time and discussion, days turned into weeks, they had every doctor, everything I had ever gone through medically that I remembered. Again I didnt remember yet the nail in head or the iLisa.
They told me after weeks of this, that they had all the medical records, including actually finding a piece of frozen placenta from my daughters birth, that they had found everything, all except for the doctor I now know who was my pediatrician at the time of the nail in head, in fact he was my pediatrician for almost ten years. They said he was no longer alive, and there was no use in disturbing this wife who was a widow of my pediatrician for the medical records. I realize now they thought I had put a nail in the devils head, they definitely didnt know that I had been shot and a nail was in my head. And then about the same time, I was talking to one of the investigators, and she was in the kitchen talking to me, and as she was slamming the doors to the kitchen cabinets to put the dishes away, she told me "that the good news is that I am fine." I didnt know what they meant. I already thought I was fine. I was wondering what were they looking for then, what was this all about?
That they had said it was a coincidence that I was in several of their investigations didnt even surprise me. Coincidences like this didnt surprise me, things like this happen to me all the time. What are the chances of this happening? For me the chances are good. However I know for certain as they were actually nice people and we got along quite well, that they couldn’t have known that it was me that has a nail in my head, and couldn’t have known that it was me that had the iLisa. This is easy to figure out, because if they knew, then they would have known that the devil and others, were watching me all day and night. And I know this was not the case. I really think all these coincidences must mean something in my life. I am just not always sure what it means at the time. All this has taught me that life is a magical mysterious experience, and to never take anything for granted. And that anything is possible. At the time, I see that I had written down the following, “I learned that the moral of this story is, lie to the police and that crime pays. And that the innocent are the ones that need attorneys because the guilty can lie for themselves." I wouldnt go back to this investigators house, as suddenly as we got close to the truth, the devil must have stepped in, as they started denying that they knew anyone I knew from New York, they even knew Judy who was the one who visited me in the hospital when I had the nail in my head, even discussing her parents and her whole family and in detail, and they further denied that they had done any investigations about my health records, and before they had admitted this and spent weeks at least going over this, including discussing knowing other friends from New York that knew the devil, and something was not right, so I quit. They just said “I know you have been under a lot of stress after the death of your father, and we don’t know anyone you know, lets get back to work now, okay.” I couldn’t take this anymore, so I quit. I am not angry with them now, and forgive them, and in hindsight they helped me, just in a backwards type of way. As now it helps me see what the devil was up to, and in way that I couldnt have unless I was that close to its evil ways.
The devil likes bluffing like this, and sometimes it gets too close to the fire, and this time it went right for the flame, and burned it self up.
After I quit this investigative job, the devil didnt stop there, so it told the police to call me, trying to use some reason to arrest me. The police social worker who I will call SE wanted me to come see her, and said on the phone something about warning me about something. I thought whatever it is probably about all this lying, and I had nothing to worry about so I would go in and straighten things out, I reasoned maybe she was going to tell me what all this lying was about instead however I was questioned me about everything, and I realize now it turned into an interrogation. As when I got there she didnt warn me about anything. She asked me why I thought someone might be complaining about me, these so called accusers as she called them, I said "I didnt know, it must be someone with a sick need, as I had no known enemies". She asked me what religion I was. I told her I was raised Protestant, if that is what she meant. SE said she usually didn't ask about religion, but in this case it was relevant. I was accused of things that didnt even remotely sound like me, including, Alt Religion Scientology, or ARS and message boards. At first she would jump to conclusions, that I was a problem or something. I was accused of strange and violent things, and in hindsight it was like they were thinking I was like the devil. I kept saying that it was probably somebody who was lying, it didn’t even sound like me. She didn't believe that I was who I said I was in the beginning, and asked how I could prove it. Who had I known for a long time? I couldnt understand, who did she think I was? She kept trying to find something on me at first, it was really weird. I started to feel like I was being abused by this "counselor”. She(SE) told me that unless I want things to get much worse, I should just cooperate with her. My father had just died weeks before when this started. At the time I didnt know it, but I was still experiencing severe depression. She asked me to bring in a list of the stocks that I owned so they could look at them, I think it was for the FBI to see if they were going to seize them or not. How is that for being terrorized in "counseling"? I really dont know why I had to do that. I did, I brought it in. They said they wanted to see if I had any of what she called penny stocks in my portfolio. I didn't even know what she was talking about. They saw all the stocks I had were on the New York Stock Exchange. Then she would say, this has gone too far. She (SE) wouldnt tell me why I was there, she wouldnt tell me who my accusers were. She said in this case she was not going to tell me who my accusers were. It was the devil I know now. I sort of believed "it didnt happen, nothing happened, everything is fine."If you are lied to long enough you start to believe it. Its a type of brainwashing.
She (SE) asked me about a few things I had done online to protest certain things, like as if I was a real dangerous radical or something. I told her that I did do them, but it wasnt illegal in this country, last that I heard to stand up for what you believe. Even if it was a radical liberal or anti-Republican point of view, which it wasnt. I just stated my opinion. So much for freedom of speech.
She wanted to know why I was always switching in between screen names on America Online. How did she even know this? It was 1996 and as I explained to her, I was only allowed to have a certain amount of web space for my web pages for each screen name. I needed a lot more web space for my files than one screen name provided.
In order to send (upload) the graphics to the internet I had to switch to the other screen name first, then send (upload) the file. I didnt have my own website yet. I hadnt figured it out yet, I was teaching myself.
I was practicing making web pages and making help files. I was beta testing HTML software for a company. They were boring pages about nothing in the beginning. I got very excited when they worked. I made pages about me and for me only.
She(SE) asked me about a web page that was mean and on the internet that had been made of Jims daughter. I told her I would never do that, what would possibly motivate me to do that?
I liked Jims daughter as I knew her when she was little, she was so totally very cute. I used to play with her when an old boyfriend, and I were visiting Jim way back when I was a teenager. (SE) wanted to know about the times we had tried to make contact with Jims kids over the years. I told her about how we took the kids mom to court and what had happened. I explained to her how we did our own investigative work. That we had made several attempts to contact them. On one occasion when Jim called he was yelled at, and sworn at, and then they hung up. So he had tried. He was told it was Jims kid, but we dont believe everything we are told at all. I explained to (SE) that I was practicing how I wanted my home page to look when I finally got one. I was just trying to figure it out, using graphics, sounds and links. I had only been making pages for a few years if that. There was nothing immoral, illegal, and naked or anything on the pages. I couldnt figure it out. It was legal, so whats the problem, why am I at the police department?
She asked me to draw a family tree. We never quite got this far. SE then started asking me what I knew about cults, she thought at first that I was in Scientology, which I knew nothing about.
I was asked everything by (SE). I was very popular and well known in the community. I didnt want to tell her all the people that I worked for because I didnt want her calling them up and telling them things also. I didnt trust her.
I couldnt figure out why she (SE) was trying to find something on me and create trouble for me. This is counseling right?
I think some shrinkotherapists should have just gotten a job flipping burgers, instead of peoples minds.
In fact after going through this, that if I ever even think of going to another shrinkotherapist ever again, then I am ~clearly~ crazy for certain. And I must need it.
(SE) kept mentioning medical problems, the DNA database, and not specifically anything, just looking to see what she could find, what did I know.
I don't think a third party should be legally able to tell somebody, or interrogate someone about their personal medical background without them first having the right to this information themselves. Your medical information should be kept confidential and between the doctor and the patient and nobody else, but its not. I think she was looking for some reason to deny my health insurance, as I had just applied, and again the devil has herpes, and was saying it was me. And I am perfectly healthy. I also thought maybe when I was a kid, it was those upsetting medical DNA tests that I had, but I wasn’t sure what the results were, I couldn’t exactly remember.
I kept saying I wanted to call my attorney, she (SE) was against it saying I didn't need an attorney for this sort of thing.
How can others, especially the police, have a right to my medical information, without me even knowing it? I didnt even know these things. What about confidentiality in medical records?
It should be made illegal in the future. And I didn't know anything about Scientology. Now I will never trust a therapist ever ever again. This much is ~clear~.
It felt more like an interrogation than counseling, and I kept saying that, and that I felt my civil rights were being violated.
She (SE) said what took so long for her was that it was difficult to prove a negative, in the beginning I think she just wanted to get me for anything. I am still really upset about this now in 2011. It changed the course of the next few years, I didn’t want to talk to anyone after this, I didn’t want to work for people , and be harassed like this. I had had it, that was final. In the end she saw she was beating up on the total wrong person and she did apologize and seemed to mean it. It was too late. I knew she had been told things about me, but not from someone who liked me. I knew that I hadn't done anything so whatever it was, I wasn't afraid to face her with the truth.
At the end of her "counseling sessions", she said to me looking over her notes as if she had the answer all along, and she could have just listened to me, "You said that you felt that someone had a sick need, and thats what you thought this was about, you were right."
You know if somebody you have never met accuses you and treats you like a criminal and you havent done anything, something is up.
In the beginning of her “counseling session” she said sometimes she uses a bit of a type of "counseling" used by Scientology. In hindsight she was using interrogation to try to arrest me, and this was the devil and not her or anyone really that she was speaking for.
I started analyzing what (SE)'s problems were, she seemed to jump to conclusions at first, and she was full of misinformation. She had a nervous habit of twisting her hair around her fore finger.
I wondered if she was aware of that, so for fun, mirroring her, I did it back. She didn't like it and said to me "thats enough of that."
I kept asking her if maybe from being at the police department she had gotten bitter over the years, and instead of believing people when they are being honest, she just assumed they were lying. She admitted that this was a possibility.
I said to her that it seems like they whoever they are and I didn’t know it but it was the devil and its friends, thinks that “what we do is okay, what they do is ~not~ okay”. I didnt say anything I don think, but I was referring to the fact that my friends had told me years ago, when the stupid plea bargain was made, that the devil was running some sort of sex club, and having everyone it could attend, everyone. And that this became very popular, that I wouldnt know about it, because I would never have attend it. It was also a great way for the devil to control them, even threaten and extort them if needed, as usual. My friend has told me, that this is what it was about years ago, and said "and this is real important to them, and that they just aren't going to give this up for you, they just ~argent~." The social worker (SE), thought for a second about about what I had said, and said “ I guess you are right”. She started realizing after listening to me and after many so called “counseling” sessions. That something was not right, and she started to like me.
Later after she had taken the time to check out my story, and she knew people that I knew, and including in Scientology , and she apologized to me and said"that people always lie to the police she had the wrong guys". She said, speaking about me and that, "actually that it was rather refreshing for a change to hear the truth."
In order to find out what had happened, I played the game back. I pretended that I knew more then I did, and tried not to act surprised when she said things that I didn't know. I just didn't ask questions back for one thing.
SE said to me everyone gets their day in court, they get to face their accusers, she seemed sorry to cause so much stress for me, and with a sigh, she said " I guess you wont." It wasn’t long after this, since the devil was watching everything, that the devil thought things were getting out of control, the lies it had kept for many years were becoming dangerously close to being seen, and by the police, so after a short time, she had to leave the police department after almost exposing the truth. SE was supposed to arrest me, not like me and take my side. So then as is usual with the devil and its modus operandi, the devil as usual threatened her with lawsuits, treason and all the usual tactics that it had used for years and she had to leave the police department, and so she couldn’t help me when all this resurfaced 15 years later and I specifically asked for her, over and over again to the new social worker who had listened to the devil and believed its lies, as well as to others. She was supposed to help me in the future, which is what she meant when she said after all of this to me, that my records would always be there, and in the future she could help me. She even said emphasizing this to me, "I am not just talking the talk, I am going to walk the walk". I now know she wasnt allowed to help me, because he devil wanted to have the “best possible chance” again, to get away with anything, including the best possible chance to either have me killed or do it itself. She must of had to leave the police department because she was in the know, when she should have been there to help.
Having me to through this repeatedly was not only a way to control me and others, but the devil thrived on watching me struggle like this, and thought it was not only great fun, it gave it something to do, and kept it entertained, and found it to be the funniest part of the whole thing.
When all the lying finally caught up with the devil, and the light of day shined on its dark eyes, you can see the bully in the devil, it is really weak and its a coward, like a scared little child.
THE DEVIL PLANS THE STUPID PLEA BARGAIN AND I AM TOLD ABOUT IT
This person Gerri even had me arrested in 2007 and 2008 and put in jail and a mental hospital for 3 months saying that I was mentally ill, and that none of this has happened which she of course knew did. Again, I was told that I would have to spend 3 months locked up in the future, due to this backwards plea bargain. I didnt agree to this, but thats what I was told. I kept saying it sounds like some jail type person came up with this idea, and they said it is. I said this because why would this happen to me, and for what? I had never been to a mental hospital or been in jail for a sentence in my life. She has an extensive history of mental illness, being jailed, and is of a violent nature that I had not have previously believed possible. My friends told me the devil did this to me because among other reasons, it was because it has a money problem this is happening, what they meant was a drug problem. The reward money cured her of her money problem. They said I had to figure out the whole thing on my own, and that I could do anything to clarify the problem and turn it around which I am, but they are sorry that I would have horrible things done to me, and spend 3 months locked up. If I spent all my time worrying and being upset about things that could happen or have happened, then I can ruin the days that I have now. And it sounded too unreal to be true, but as I now know, it was true.THE DEVIL MAKES MY FRIENDS FROM WINDSOR MOUNTAIN SCHOOL AND OLD FRIENDS SICK
This same situation reoccurred with all my friends from Larchmont New York, and from Windsor Mountain School in Lenox Massachusetts which is a boarding school that I went to, and graduated from in 1975. This was one very progressive school, and it was run by our unique, fantastic and
Heinz Bondy Windsor Mountain School Reunion-Second From Left
THE DEVIL MAKES MY BIRTH FAMILY SICK, BLAMES ME, AND ACTS AS IF I FOUND MY BIRTHFAMILY, WHEN THE DEVIL KNEW WHERE THEY WERE ALL THE TIME
At one point the devil had my birthfamily found, although she had known where they were from all her life, as she was from the same town as they had come from in West Virginia. She made it seem as I had found my birthfamily, which was a lie. This is a long story in itself, the end result was that she created a huge fight between my birthmother, my birthfamily and I, which was not real. And then she blamed me for the disagreement.
She made my birthfamily very sick in the 1980s, including but not at all limited to having a sibling of mine diagnosed with a disease that they did not have, and then actually had a biopsy done on them, and when it was complete, they found out that there was no disease at all. And the doctor that supposedly called in the order to have it done, didnt even exist, and she did much more to all of them then this, injuring them badly, and the same scenario repeated itself. The devil had done the whole thing itself, everything. And my birthfamily had no idea that it was me that had a nail in my head, and the iLisa, and thought it was the devil. And seeing how it acts, I am not surprised, I would have also. The devil said she would sue them if they told anyone anything, they would be brought to trial and convicted of treason. They were not allowed to talk to me, or see me, unless they lied, tricked me, and or insulted me. At first they bought her lies about the nail in her head, and the rest of the hoopla and BS.
THE DEVIL AND HOW MY BIRTHFAMILY GETS IT ARRESTED IN A STING AND THAT STING IS HAPPENING NOW
Years later, after my birthfamily found out the truth about what the devil is about, and they found this out in ways that I wont mention, they realized they had been lied to, and in a big way. The family had been torn up for no reason, and they had taken the wrong side. They all somehow had the devil arrested as they had been made sick, had been shot at and much more, and have secretly planned on assisting me in getting the devil, and getting it for good,as they needed to wait for me to aboard for the big sting first, and now I am. So years ago when they figured out what had happened, and in order to finally get over on the devil, my birthfamily called me up and apologized, and told me they were going to get the devil, and had to disappear, and not to listen to anything they say, but to watch what they do. They admitted they had made a terrible mistake, and that terrible things had happened to them, and were going to happen to me. Even mentioning that the devil had plans to kill me, I dont exactly remember what they said it was, just "that is how I will know that the devil is trying to kill you." So when it started attacking me in 2007, I just knew that is what it was. I just knew it. And now I realize they were planning to arrest her. And they are also a main part of the alliance to get her. I appreciate their help also, and I am very sorry for what they have been through. The devil hates them as much as my Windsor Mt School friends, and just hurt me right now for writing this about them.
In fact I had been lied to so much and believed it, that I had written my life story, even having it copyright by the "library of Congress". I named it "One from Amongst the Flowers Wild", this was named after a poem that was written about me when I was 2 years old by a friend of my (adoptive) parents. I dont really refer to them as my adoptive parents ever, just my parents, but for the sake of clarification in this story I will. Here is a link to the story, the pictures are missing as I wrote it in around the year 2000. I will replace some of the pictures from my adoptive family as time permits. And at the time I wrote this it was around the year 2000, this is what I had thought happened. I found out many years later that the devil wanted me to move to Tennessee with my birthfamily to get me out of the Chicago area, to hurt me, and so it could maintain the lies and not get caught. And my birthfamily was totally lying, they knew about the devil, and as I mentioned had to lie, as they believed that she was the one with the nail in the head and the hoopla BS. A lot of strange things happened down there, that I wont put on the internet, but it follows the same pattern that happened to others, its just my family, so I wont print it. I was even told and this many, many years later after I left Tennessee that the devil used the money from the reward, to buy my birthfamily a bigger house, just to get me to move down there.
THE DEVIL AND THE NO MATTER WHAT AGREEMENT AND WHY IT WAS MADE
The no matter what agreement was made because as I was repeatedly told by those sick of this happening, that every time we almost settle the score with the devil, there is ~always~ some little insignificant reason, why the devil thinks its "not fair", and so they decided even though it wasnt fair to anyone else, they didnt want to keep going through this, it had gone on with this for years already by this time, and only to have this come up over and over again, so this time they would come up with a deal that everyone would have to agree on just to be done with this situation, and that is how this happened. And that is why this agreement is called , and I call it the "no matter what agreement". The devil had repeatedly gotten out of deals it had made in the past, and the no matter what agreement put an end to the lies and its behavior of hurting people, destroying families and everything, and for good.
I was told the devil just wants to do these horrible things to you Lisa, and doesnt and cant stop its sick behavior, they said this over and over. I was also told that the devil had secret unknown information, threats of treason knowingly or unknowingly, imposed numerous whats called gag orders, and done things too numerous to mention, they would lose their job or their freedom, or family or their money, or everything that it threatened everyone with, ways to silence them through different schemes they had been entrapped in or framed by the devil, the devil had something to control them with.I do know that the devils lies became more numerous, and that made things much worse as the years went on, and that more and more people got dragged into her tangled web, people enmeshed and bound together by lies.
However the devil had no means of negotiating with me, none at all, and this was even before I or anyone really knew that I was the one with the nail in my head and that I was the one involved in the iLisa project. Remember the devil is really thinking defensively, it fears precisely the exact things that it threatens and does to others All this lying has had an unintended response that has helped me to develop and sharpen my sense of intuition, in order to make sense of my life and survive. And this has helped me immensely to emerge unharmed and with a sense of self. As Jim helped me phrase about myself "How this effects one is entirely to some degree personal and I can only speak from my experience. I derive from a source of spiritual strength an ability to sustain myself in spite of the effects of the fragmentation of my experience brought about by the effect of chronic lying and the devils behavior." I don't know exactly where this comes from. I have a desire to not give up, a need to survive and even have fun no matter what.Only this time the game is over, she taught me how to play, and now I know the rules. Im not playing any more. I dont like this game and Im not going through this again
THE DEVIL TRYS TO MARRY MY BROTHER IN LAW
In the 1980s the devil tried to marry my brother in law, and had lied to him in every way possible. It said it was a Christian and even started wearing a little cross to prove this, and the devil cant stand religion, to say this is the understatement of all time. It ripped him off, and left town before the actual marriage took place. The devil told him that it needed to wait for marriage before it would consummate the marriage, so he had no idea it had a penis. And the devil had told him that it had a nail in its head, and I dont know if he thought the iLisa, as we havent been able to discuss this, and not at all. I only know what I heard at the time. Of course as is always part of the devils agenda, it silenced the entire situation, with threats and prison time as usual, and if I hadnt heard about this, when the devil didnt show up for its own wedding, I wouldnt even know about this at all.And by the grace of God, somehow what I said about all the lying on the phone to him and others, prevented him from actually getting Herpes, and the marriage was annulled. It was very close, and I am so thankful for this, every once in awhile the devil loses, and it was worth all of this, just to save him. My intuition is activated that something is not right, when incongruent behaviors, actions and words, including lies come out of people that I know. I stop listening to what they are saying, and know that something is up. I dont know exactly what its about, and I could never have guessed this, but I just know something is going on. And he is a great guy, and I was even friends with him before I met my husband Jim. He is also part of the great alliance to get the devil, he was really lied to, and taken advantage of in a major way. I sometimes refer to Tom or Thomas, as Somat, as that is how I pronounce his name backwards, since he had the story backwards. In fact the whole family we call the Narocroc s for the same reason. Everyone had the story backwards that it had a nail in its head, and that I did it to the devil, and they thought I didnt remember this. In fact the devil had lied about this for so long, since I got to the Wilmette area, when I was only 16 years old. They had no idea until just recently that I have a nail in my head and the iLisa, and other things as well. I can not express how glad I am that things didnt get any worse for Somat, I know he appreciates this as well, not because he said so, he isnt allowed, I just know. This upset the devil in a major way that it didnt get away with this evil idea of marrying Somat, it wanted to get him sick, and its throwing a tantrum as it sees me writing this right now.
THE DEVIL IN DENIAL OVER NOT BEING ABLE TO GET OUT OF THE NO MATTER WHAT AGREEMENT
Even now in February of 2011, it cant believe and doesnt want to give it self up, or agree to follow through with the agreement until the bitter end, and it probably wont. It will try to get out of this and it just didnt count on things working out like this, it thought I would have been killed or something by this time. The devil has no ability to foresee the future repercussions of its actions, none at all. Being a Sociopath, it is overoptimistic about the outcome of its behavior, it just didnt take this into account that I would do so well under these conditions, it underestimated its enemy. And it had always gotten away with horrid things and agreements before, that it counted on this again, someway , somehow , it thinks its smarter than everyone and that didnt happen this time. The devil is going to lose its freedom, and lose everything, including and possibly its life. They were disgusted with the devil, and many found her very embarrassing from her family who were told the story backwards, even though they knew nothing like having a nail in its head had happened, and I hadnt remembered what happened to me yet and that I do, or the iLisa project. And it would be many years later until we found out through DNA testing, that she wasnt even really in their family anyway. They had made an agreement with the devils mother, that the devil was to get what I was told, was the "best possible chance", and I didnt know for what, but this is what they said. The devil can not for any reason get out of it again, and those in the know of the truth, were sick of this, and just wanted the end result, which is that she is put away or down, and stop her from getting away with this sick behavior. This deal made it final, no matter what.Due to the stupid plea bargain she made to get herself out of prison, when I figured out what happened to me as described above, I was to go through the same thing she had gone through, spending 3 months locked up as she did. The story was mixed up when the plea bargain was made, and there was what I call the no matter what clause. It stated that as she had been locked up for 3 months, then I had to be locked up no matter what also. Then it stated that no matter what she is going to prison for the rest of her life, that was the no matter what agreement. Others stated that she would be put to death for this and other crimes, and they were waiting for this time to come.(Interruption to the story for THE DEVILS DEMAND)
The devil has repeatedly stated that it is petrified of being put to death, and has repeatedly demanded that it serve life in prison instead. She is terrified of the thought in particular of the electric chair, and going through the same thing that I have been going through. To say this, is an understatement, and its obsessed with this to the point that it would do anything to get out of being put to death.
I tried negotiating with her for months that turned into years about this, attempting to get her to stop and turn herself in, and telling the devil that I would help it get out of the death penalty if it turned it self in, and or stopped the deadly behavior that it was inflicting on me. I tried adding to the negotiation that I would have it sent money, as much as possible for a prisoner at one point, books etc whatever, and I cant emphasize to the reader enough, that nothing I said made any difference. It laughed and laughed at this, if anything increasing its deadly behavior. And I wasted my time as all it wanted was to continue to take the heroin and hurt me hoping to kill me or get others to if possible. It is very sick. And now I want nothing more to do with the devil after its locked up this time, no messages from or through anyone, no mail, no phone calls or communication of any sort, nothing. I am through with it. Now that it is under house arrest, its demeanor has changed dramatically, it is very frightened now, and needs to have an armed guard watching it for the rest of its life. It used to think everything dangerous it did was very funny, and was infinitely and noticeably more aggressive. Keeping it under house arrest until its taken away is necessary to keep the community, the nation and myself safe from harm. Again thank you for your prayers and help. I could not do this on my own.At this very moment she is going through heroin withdrawal and thanks to having enough money all this time, she never ever had to go through this before, and the devil is absolutely sick as hell. She would do anything including chewing her own arm off to get away, including lie to anyone, promise anyone anything. And she is very angry about this and the thought of spending her life in prison only to get put to death, so angry she is to the point of fear that she has never felt before, it actually seems like good therapy for her. And it should have had to go through this years ago.
Nobody except those closest to the devil knew this, and she lied to everyone. It actually escaped from prison before once, and another time used my medical condition and impersonating me to get out again. It is very upset that none of her sociopathic ideas have worked this time. She is like a caged animal, and is behaving much better for this. The thought of me being protected like this, makes it incredibly angry. I dont know what is wrong with this devil, I ask it to explain what is bothering it. It just thinks its entitled to behave like this, and has been made worse I believe by having its demands met when it is throwing tantrums like a two year old, lying, impersonating me, stealing and then being rewarded for acting like this. When it gets what it wants by misbehaving like this, it thinks its getting a high five from the Universe, as if it is in the right. Besides, it says that it likes behaving like this, hurting others including and especially me. Its just not sure why.Putting the devil on house arrest may have saved my life. Again thank you.Back to the story...
There was no way to get out of this agreement, as it was "no matter what". Over the years Gerri , Jerilyn, Jerri Schwann, using many different names and personas, both male and female, repeatedly tried to make deals with me and people I knew, using lies and falsely stating that she was going to include me, instead she would end up giving them Herpes and then lying that she had done this intentionally to hurt them, using the same modus operandi nearly every time. She used Herpes to get people sick since back in the 1970's and continued to do this until very recently. The only thing that stopped this wicked behavior is being made to stop, by having her under house arrest with an armed guard 24 hours a day, and 7 days a week. It has an addiction to hurting people, especially sexually, and cant stop it on its own. It has to be made to stop, and that has happened.THE DEVIL LOSES CUSTODY OF THE CHILD IT HAD WITH ITS FORMER FRIEND
It even lost custody of the child it was allowed to have with someone I believe in the early 90s, it really hurt the child and the woman badly, and since the devil is unable to have children as a man or woman, it wanted to control this woman, and hurt her, so it had her artificially inseminated. The devil promised to care for this child, even to the point of seeing therapists and trying to really show how much the devil cared, but it was all a sick lie, and when this woman had the child, and he was born with Down Syndrome the devil didnt keep up with its sick promises, as it became evident very quickly . Everyone was so concerned that she would slip back into her old rotten and sick ways, but the devil promised it wouldnt. Not only did the devil slip back into those old ways, but ended up getting this child sick, hurting the child badly, and neglected him terribly. When the child tried to verbalize how he was being hurt and made sick, the child was told that he was fine, even doctors werent allowed to help. It was that he imagined these things and his Downs Syndrome was to blame. He was made sick, hurt and not taken care of when he needed proper medical help. The woman who had this child, and the child, have been terribly abused by the devil and have been horribly violated. She knows the devil is lying about the nail in head story and having Dr Delgados reward given to her, and she is part of the huge, and every growing alliance to stop this devil for good. We thank her for all her help, and contribution to getting things organized. This is a big project and we need a lot of help. The devil then lost custody and visitation rights for good, and thankfully. The devil threatened this woman to no end. Now she is getting the last word on it, 3 cheers for her.THE DEVIL USES HERPES AS A WEAPON TO HURT PEOPLE
The many, many people that she gave Herpes to, were then further victimized by not being able to even tell people they had this disease, or anything about it unless they claimed entire responsibility as if it had been their own fault, they even had to lie to just about everyone and forever. She used different names and personas to do this and get them sick with Herpes, and that is why I will just refer to her as the devil, 666 etc. The devil does not come with a sign that says "I am the devil", and this is how she got away with this for so many years, and due to her Munchausen By Proxy she enjoyed this. And then she would say that she would sue them if they tell anyone what happened, as she would state that they had actually given this disease to her. At one point she even blamed me for giving Herpes to people, stating that it was me and not her who infected them. And she even said I had a penis, and I do not.
I DECLINE DEALS TO GET SICK AND EXPLOITED AND THE LIES GO ON LONGER
I declined all such deals, including one time a demand to sell her my biological eggs and another to participate in a study for what I call the want to F#CK you gene, its a condition that I do have, where although I am physically a normal female, I am more biologically male than female, and what I named it is a good description, as it is said to cause a sexual attraction to me that is being studied and it is rare, and as one person described it to me, its like being a hybrid flower, I declined this study as well. As a result of staying healthy and not getting Herpes, and staying out of such deals at any cost, and declining to sell my biological eggs, I was forced into this situation. Not only is she dangerous, but she has created enormous insurmountable problems for many. I tried to warn people years ago about this, but she had them tell me that she (the devil) would sue me if I ever said that again! I am not sorry for turning down all these asinine deals, and I am thankful every day that I remain healthy, even if it took many more years to figure out what happened.THE STUPID PLEA AGREEMENT IT MADE TO GET OUT OF PRISON
And that was why I got myself arrested in 2007, as I knew it couldnt stop this backwards situation, until I spent 3 months locked up. So as a protest, I got myself arrested and was locked up for the required three months. This didnt just mean being locked up, it meant being abused, hurt, lied to by the doctors, psychiatrists, even the inmates. In fact she had gotten a stupid agreement when they let her out of jail, that covered up another murder that she committed and framed someone else for. The stupid agreement stated that the entire CCJ would be let out of jail on the condition that in the future, the inmates and the shrinks had to come back to jail, lie about everything, and set me up to get arrested. I even heard that other support groups and mental hospitals were included in this stupid plea bargain, as she told everyone she could, and I do mean everyone, all about the hoopla BS, how she had a nail in her head and the rest. I am still at this time very angry about this, as I would have told nobody when I figured it out. And I detest that she did this. In fact it says a lot about who she is, I feel this was extortion and she should have been locked up at the time. Because I hadnt figured out what had happened yet concerning the experiment, there was nothing that could be done. It was super secret. And it should have stayed that way. I am resorting to writing stories on the internet, to save my life and to keep my mental and physical health intact, and most likely others too, and to finally end this backwards situation. She stated that there was going to be trouble in the future, that this person Lisa was a huge liar, and that they were part of sort of a sting to get me. If they didnt cooperate properly, then they would be put back in jail and finish their sentence. From what I was told the doctors and shrinks were paid off, and they would lose everything, and be prosecuted for treason. Now this was hard for me to believe when I was told this, I mean why me? So I would forget it and go on with my life.666 further stated that there was going to be trouble in the future, that this person Lisa was a huge liar, and that it further demanded that they were to take part in a sort of a sting to get me. If they didnt cooperate properly, then they would be put back in jail and finish their sentence.
CONDITIONS IN THE JAIL AND MENTAL HOSPITALS INLCUDING GETTING BRUISED ON MY NECK AND AN INJECTION IN MY REAR AGAINST MY WILL
They had to do a lot of sick things to me when I was locked up in the jail and the jail nut house and finally sent to Elgin Mental Hospital where this abuse continued. The abuse I encountered included but was not limited to sleep deprivation, sometimes days on end, taking numerous blood samples over and over again to hurt me, having my wisdom tooth shot at instilling pain that is like having a tooth extracted with no Novocain which went on for nearly the entire 3 months I was there, and nobody could get a dentist to help me, I had improper medicines prescribed, not being fed and missing meals at times or being fed food with a special devil ingredient with a horrible pepper like taste, that burns your throat as if you had ingested something caustic, and that makes you sick and stays in your system so you taste it for weeks , looking sickly by going down to around 98 pounds or less. And then the day that I was arrested they took me directly to CCJ, and I hadnt gone to the bathroom for over 12 hours, as nobody gave me the opportunity. I didnt even know they were taking me to jail, as the devil knew I thought I was going home. I think I was supposed to be made to pee in my pants, as I heard the devil had peed in its pants, and maybe the stupid plea bargain said this, I dont know. Everyone there seemed to know the rules, and I had never been there before, so I didnt know what the correct procedure were supposed to be, and nobody explained this either. So as we we were waiting for a medical checkup, we were sitting all these inmates and me were together in a room, and the bathroom door was open, so I went to the bathroom. When I got out of the bathroom, the guard said it was for guards only. For using the bathroom, I was taken by a guard, violently and in a headlock by my neck, head first, so I am looking at the floor, paraded fast and with great anger before many cages of males, shocked at what they saw, and then thrown by my neck in a cell by myself, after the guard pretends but then does not smash my head into the cement type cell wall. This caused a huge bruise all over my neck including I think my Harry Potter place on my neck. The bruise was about 5 by 8 inches and wrapped around my neck, and I had never that I remember had a bruise like this, all for going to the bathroom, and I didnt know we werent allowed. I didnt know this.I dont even like writing about this, as I feel and know for certain that the person was made to do this, and thought she was doing the right thing, and that I was the devil. She had the story backwards like everyone did. It bothers me to do this, but I dont want to die for the devils sins, and I know nobody wants me to either. And as you can see, I have to defend myself, that is how it was arranged with the devils stupid plea bargain. I had to actually act as my own attorney, I have never heard of this kind of thing. I put off even writing about this, for this reason. And I hope she knows I forgive her, and that I am fine, and thats the truth, it scared me more than I was actually hurt, and I was surprised to see the bruise at all. I dont want anything bad to happen to her, having been put in this situation was way more than anyone deserved. The devil is careful in choosing good people, ones that are more moral than most to do her dirty work, and I know this since I have known the devil since he was about 9 years old. And as I write this, the devil is very upset that I feel this way, and keeps saying it wants to go home. I just had to remind it, that its new home is prison, and it doesnt want that! Now that is funny!
This altercation that the devil put this person up to happened the first time they locked me up, and I saw this same young guard the next 2 times as well, she sort of sneered at me like it was very funny, and she definitely knew who I was, and I believe now was made to do this by the devil, perhaps paid big money and I am sure of this now. And this is why I didnt want to go back there, and that is why they had to rearrest me for not showing up in court. This was a major contributing factor for me not going back, and why I tried to explain this and more to the police, when they tricked me into thinking they were going to talk to me, and I went by myself to the police station, and they instead rearrested me for not showing up in court and sent me back there that day.
There were a lot of just strange things that seemed conspicuous, and like someone was up to something, this helped at times to give it away that I was in some sort of prearranged sting or something, directed by a maniac. Kotex were stapled to the wall with arrows pointing the way through the jail, instead of regular signs. Blood and feces were left smeared all over the place, on the floor, toilets and sinks.
At one point all the inmates in the jail nuthouse got up off of their chairs at the same time while we were in the day room, and simultaneously tried to step on my feet, and since we were not allowed to wear shoes I was in socks, and my feet had already been injured by the devil and its relentless shooting. I was only given 12 ounces of liquid a day, and had to request permission to go to the water fountain, which I did all the time, and they let me. Nobody else seemed to mind this and nobody else ever asked for anything more, and I had to wonder if they were somehow given supplements of other liquids without me knowing, something was not right. It just didnt make sense, as I knew that they had to be just as dehydrated as I did.
Things like this, which the devil had demanded seemed to give it away, but still it was a long stretch to think the whole jail was doing this for me, and to upset me or get me sick. That just seemed impossible, if not that, then what was going on? I just decided that it was a terrible place, and there was something wrong with me for not being able to adapt to this terrorist environment.
Further abuse happened at the jail mental hospital, including getting an injection in my rear from the guards, and when I asked the shrinks what the drug was that I was given by injection, and against my will, I was told in a stern and serious tone, with the shrink looking right at my eyes, it was "helldol" to sound like Haldol, as if I was to be given a lethal injection and sent to hell. I had been given this injection because they had locked me up in a small room with nothing but a window for refusing to take the medication called "risperdol". Then when I was praying to myself, the Lords Prayer.
THE LORDS PRAYER
Our Father, which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name;thy kingdom come;
thy will be done, in earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil.
[For thine is the kingdom, the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.]
Amen. I didnt even say anything out loud, and I was walking backwards in this cell with nothing but a window. I was breathing on the only window to this cell, and with my breath on the glass window, I was able to make crosses with my finger on the window. Then with no warning, suddenly the guards came in and took me out of this cell, and said take your position to me, which I had no idea what they meant. Three of them held me down against a wall, pulled my pants down, and against my will gave me an injection in my rear. Then with no explanation or anyone to talk to, they threw me back in my cell. I had no idea or warning they were going to do any of this. So I went in my cell, laid down on my bed on my stomach and cried so nobody could see. The next day they had some shrinks or something to talk to, thats when I reported this, and asked this one MD shrink what the drug was that they gave me in the shot. This is when the one who I mention, told me directly "Helldol" sounding like Haldol, again meaning they were going to send me to hell with a lethal injection.. I was given disposable underwear, as they had lost mine, to let me know that I was disposable, and this is what the devil told me, thinking it was very, very funny. I was given food that made me sick. I was made sick in other ways too, and couldnt go to the bathroom normally except urinate, for almost the entire over 3 months that I was locked up the third time. I had to go to take extreme measures to poop, that it had to go through when it was locked up, and cried for help about this. This was actually a requirement that I had to go through as per the stupid plea agreement, as it happened to it. I was warned about this in the 1980s from a friend who knew it all its life, so I knew this was required. Still I had a hard time believing this was all an act when I was locked up. At moments it seemed like it was not real, but for 99per cent of the time I was locked up, I thought it was real. I had moments when I thought it was BS, but to think that the entire jail was actually going through this for me, would be farfetched, and extreme. During the first few days, I thought it might be, but the longer it went on, and with no hope or help, I finally gave up, and believed this was happening for real. By the time I got out, I did believe it was real. The devil made a big deal out of that it couldnt poop normally when it was locked up, and couldnt stand it, it is fixated on feces, and didnt like this being done to her. It is ironic that this is exactly what she would have done to me, and many others too. In fact she does this as part of her modus operandi. There are so many things that happened when I was locked up that there are too many to mention, and in a so called mental hospital with shrinks and doctors overseeing the problems, most of the time.
THE GOOD PEOPLE HELP AND MONITOR MY LIFE PART 2 ON THIS TOPIC- IMPORTANT
Not everyone was against me in the jail, or even now, or since the experiment began when I was twelve. It must have been very frightening for them to watch all this since I was twelve. I mean in the best of circumstances, can you even imagine being with your child, or anyone all the time, and watching everything they do and say? It would make you old before your time. And I am sorry for such a scary show for them. So the one thing I am going to do different, now that I know again about this, I have promised those watching to do my best to stay safer and to protect my head a lot more. They are relieved to hear this. They are the gentle souls, just observing, keeping an eye on things, not attempting to effect the experiment, or to upset me in any way. As I mentioned in the story, some of my old friends have actually joined the good guy force, changed their lives to get it, and are helping now. So I get more real help every day. They help protect me against the devils constant, ferocious and insatiable need to hurt me. And nothing like this or anything I describe in the It Movie had ever happened to me before as the devil had done, all was fine. The good guys wouldnt allow it. Nothing at all had happened, just everything seemed as normal as could be under the circumstances. The good people have always been present, just quietly observing, not disturbing me, but often out of nowhere I realize now they would appear when I found myself in strange predicaments, as I have now. I know this in hindsight, as it always seemed a miracle. I need to make this clear, that they are present all the time, all day and night, every day. They have way more power, strength, speed and ability to observe me, then mere mortal men or women. And especially more than the devil. They had to hike up mountains with me in my teen years, and follow me everywhere I went. I was well taken care of too. The ones that are on my side, have always been there watching me, and looking out for me, and I appreciate their help with all I have. I am very grateful for this, or I wouldnt be here today, this much I am certain of. They actually were in the jail with me too, and are close to me now.I did communicate to the good people that I did want to satisfy all the stupid plea bargain hoopla, but not at the expense of my permanent health, as I wanted to get the 666, and for certain. And if they stood in the way of this, then I would be upset. And they were riding a thin line, but did what I asked, and they are doing an excellent job, protecting me. And they are working diligently and constantly on getting her put away, now and as far back as they could. Remember I had to figure the reward part out on my own, this was part of the experiment, nobody could help me not even my parents. Not until I was at least 50, 51 or 52 years old, and that was even if nothing happened. Which as you know it did, it just complicated things for everyone.
As it turned out, I was not giving any real medication like Haldol or Risperdol, Seroquel or anything, it was fake sugar pills. The cult saved me again making sure that I was given sugar pills instead of any actual psych meds, and they would never have allowed me to be given actual psych meds that I didnt need or want, and that is a tremendous relief. But at the time I didnt know this, and I wasnt allowed to, that was the stupid agreement again. I could be tricked into thinking I was given things like this, but not actually given uneeded medications such as serious psych drugs. Nobody should be given this stuff unless they need it and its for real, especially not me, I did not want to take it, and it could have affected my brain chemistry in ways not only not needed but perhaps made permanent damage. The good guys and women are not the ones, who are the loudest or obvious, but they are the best. And I owe them my life. They are there, and I know this. They have subtle ways of communicating with me, so I know they are there. Some ways are secret, and I wont explain them. But I am made to know that I am not alone, as the devil wants me to believe. They wouldnt put up with this, they didnt agree to make me feel alone or hurt me, nobody could make them, especially not her. They are the goodness, and the light. They had the truth on their side.She wanted me to feel nobody cares, nobody is helping me. And that I am alone. She wanted me to be so upset when this is over, that I wouldnt like or speak to anyone. And she has lost. She cant change me or how I feel.REMEMBERING ABOUT THE HARRY POTTER SCAR IN 2007 AND HAVING IT BEING SHOT AT
Other things that happened when I was at the jail mental hospital were my Harry Potter scar on the back of my head from where the nail entered was made infected, shot at, and made to hurt and swell up as much as anything could. Nothing like that has ever happened to the scar for as long as I can remember, or I would have wondered years ago what it was. Its in a place that cant be seen, unless you were actually looking for it, and knew where it is. And I never noticed it, until the devil terrorized me into finding it, which started the whole thing in 2007. I had just taken a picture of the scar after this, to look at it after discovering it, as I cant see it where it is. And I hadnt even mentioned that I thought I had a nail in my head to anyone yet, as I had just seen the picture I took, not remembering yet the dental xray taken in1980 many years ago, and tried to remember more about it, and then when I am home in my room, I got an instant message from my then boyfriend of many years, who knows everyone but I didnt know that then, I only do now. As after telling me one time many years ago about some patient of his dads that had sick ideas about me, and I realize now he had no idea this was It that I had known from camp, that had terrorized me all my life, he was silenced and never brought it up or admitted this ever again, lying to me completely and has never said anything to me at all since. In fact I had never even spoken about all of that, I hadnt remembered it, it was blanked out and erased from my memory. Then my boyfriend, who is the son of the shrink who the devil tried to strangle and kill, sent me an instant message on the computer, and it said "You hit the nail on the head", and I now realize the devil told him to do this, as it doesnt sound remotely like anything he would do. And I was upset that he would make a joke like that about something I just had found out, somehow I thought he must have known somehow, and kept this secret from me only to reveal this to me in a sick way. I didnt understand, and felt I didnt really know him instead, and by a sick way. I didnt know yet about the iLisa or that the devil or anything like this was watching me. I didnt understand, why he would be so callus and cold.I FIND OUT I HAVE A NAIL IN MY HEAD I GET RIPPED OFF BY THE DEVIL WITH PUMP AND DUMP STOCKS, AND THE DEVIL CANT STOP THIS
My head started to hurt also, and I had just figured out through this stupid stock message board that the devil was posting on THAT I HAVE A NAIL IN MY HEAD, THIS IS HOW IT ALL STARTED AND THIS IS HOW I FIGURED IT OUT.
THEN I notice suddenly, that I had a splitting headache, and I had no idea that I was being shot, and thought it was from all the crying, and the devil told me that the nail was all rusty. ONE OF THE NAMES WHO POSTS IS RUSTY NAIL. So I was scared and stayed in bed for about a day and a half. I had no idea that I had the iLisa or that it could and was watching me at all.
It had been writing messages on a messages board that it had tried to sell to the very nice people I worked with, and tried to sell me the rip off stock investments also, actually insisting on it. It tried to sell these bulletin board stocks, that are called pump and dump stocks, and from what I found out, it had done this since the 1980s. The devil came to the place I used to work, a computer training place in Northfield, an this was around 1996, asking people there to ask me to have sex with this person. And this is when my dad had just died and left me enough money to retire with. So it was trying to hurt me, it likes hurting people like this too. I had no idea that this was it from camp, or the devil that had been hurting my friends all this time, in fact I didnt know that it was it that I knew until the last 4 years. This was it and it wanted to give me Herpes. I only know this now.It didnt sound right, as I had worked there for years, and suddenly they said I had to call before I came there, to see if it was alright. I said this is a public business, nobody else calls first, what is going on here? They didnt know what to say in return, of course it didnt make sense. I did most of the trainings there, and would come by for many reasons, which they liked,I never had any problems what so ever with any of them, we couldnt have gotten along better. So I knew something was up, what I didnt know.
HERE IS A LINK TO THE MESSAGE BOARD WHERE I FIGURED OUT THROUGH THE DEVILS POSTING NAME CALLED RUSTY NAIL THAT I HAD A NAIL IN MY HEAD, THIS IS HOW I FIGURED I T OUT.Here is a link to the message board that the devil posted this information on, and it is still posting there today. It would make posts knowing I was reading this message board because I had been ripped off for a lot of money on this stupid stock VCSY since the year 2000, Vertical Computer Systems Inc a BB bulletin board stock with the ticker symbol VCSY. It had been using the AOL message board for this stock VCSY first, and after awhile America Online shut the board down and wouldnt allow any more bulletin board BB stock boards to be opened anymore due to pump and dump stocks and stock fraud. As I write this the devil is shooting at my neck, and this means it wants to break my neck. It does this quite often lately, and makes it impossible to sleep or anything, I never used to be awake at this time, which is 1am in the morning,
Monday morning February 7, 2011. I am going to begin posting an ongoing account of how often and in what ways it shoots at me, beginning today. The link to this new online account of how the devil is shooting me will be at the bottom of this page, and will begin today. I am going to try to go to sleep now and its 1:35am Monday February 7,2011 and I will post an updated daily journal dated describing the shooting, and what is going on, this will be above the lisacorcoran.com black logo with gold writing on the bottom of this page, abuse happens in private, and the devil is taking advantage of this. This is effective immediately.************************************************************
What I didnt know is that "It" was watching me, and I mean literally. I was writing stories about what I thought had happened to me and, and then since it knew what I was typing at home, it would then post things for example such as with the name RUSTY NAIL, and then it would answer questions to what I was writing, and before I even put it on the internet or anything. I couldnt see how it was doing this, and it never occurred to me at any time, that it was watching me doing this. I had no idea about the iLisa. It saw that I was buying stocks online, and as soon as I bought a stock, it tanked, no matter what stock it was. First it posted on the AOL board, for this stock called VCSY, and I bought a lot of this, and as soon as I did, this went to about zero also.. This went on from about the year 2000 until now, and I couldnt figure it out, until I figured out the iLisa, then I knew it was watching me. I could never have guessed this.. Then, from being shot and realizing that I am being shot in the head, and where the nail is, I cried and cried in my bed when nobody was looking, from pain and that nobody had previously believed me or would really do anything to stop this.THE DEVIL SHOOTS THE NAIL SCAR IN ELGIN MENTAL HEALTH CENTER WHEN I AM LOCKED UP FOR 3 MONTHS
The what I call, the Harry Potter scar swelled up, oozed some kind of infection and got big and nobody really helped, they finally gave me antibiotics for this, and tylenol. Another time, I went into the bathroom and in one of the stalls the door had been left open, and I went in to to use the bathroom, and someone had been obviously waiting for me, and kicked the door shut on me, I cant tell you how hard she kicked it, the devil I am sure had threatened her seriously saying she would have to go back to jail or something, almost missing my head by a fraction of an inch. I forgive her, and I am sorry she was used like this. I am sure she feels terrible about this. I almost got another severe head injury, and have already just had too many.FALLING ON MY HEAD WHEN I WAS ONE AND HALF-HAIRLINE FRACTURE
Besides all the other time I had mentioned where I hurt my head, before we moved to Larchmont when I was around five or six years old, we lived in Bayonne, New Jersey. They had been repairing the kitchen, and there was a hole in the floor going all the way down to the basement, and something was covering it, but somehow it had been moved. And I was in an accident. I had somehow fallen through this hole, this was when I was one and a half years old. I had fallen from the first floor of the house in the kitchen clear down onto a cement floor in the basement below, and I landed on my head. My dad saw me laying on the cement floor on my back, not moving or even crying, he was so scared, better that I had made some sound or something, and I was taken to the hospital where my pediatrician Dr Rubenstein took care to me. When I got out, I had been confined to my crib with a net over it, and wasnt allowed to get out. I had gotten what is called a hairline fracture even back then. I dont need anymore head injuries. When I was locked up the third time. I saw the light of day and was only to go outside, only for twenty or thirty minutes, the entire over three months. And they locked me up and arrested me 3 separate times for this.THE DEVIL AND MY DOCTOR AND THE FAKE CAT SCAN
In 2008 my kids dad Jim, decided he wanted to see a picture of the nail in my head, and I didnt. We argued about this a lot and I explained that its my body and I dont want to see it, I tried to explain to him that, maybe with how strong the mind is, even though I know the nail is there, seeing it might make me sick or cause a problem where there is none.And Jim kept saying how serious this is, and then he repeatedly called my doctor and asked for this test to be done. Jim just did not agree, and was real angry with me, and upset with me a lot about this, he just couldnt see it from my point of view at all.
And besides the doctor had said there is no nail in my head, even rubbing the area during a previous examination, rubbing it hard and roughly as if to wipe off a fake scar right where the nail entered by head on my neck. He rubbed the Harry Potter place roughly saying there was nothing there.
Besides this, I had told him years before about how I had seen Helen Brachs body be shot, and how I had seen this on the news, and just remembered that as well a few years before, even leaving a copy of a statement that I had written up for him to keep on file about this.
The doctor had really been lied to and threatened by the devil, the devil even told me he was wearing sort of a wire, so the devil could tell him what to say, and so to make matters worse, the doctor further stated during this examination that I had, that I had imagined the nail in my head, the iLisa gift from Dr Jose Delgado, and everything, implying that what I had said I had seen with Helen Brach being shot was also a delusion. He was implying that I had delusional symptoms and said to me"I told you to take the Zoloft".
I had told the doctor I wouldnt take any psych meds, and to put that in my file. This doctor was callus, angry and annoyed over this examination and all that I had said, I had told him trying to hold it together and not crying before that "this is a long story", and he said to me "I dont have time for long stories", showing no empathy or anything. In the devils type of way, this doctor was impatient with me, and sort of disgusted that I was wasting his time. The thing that is really weird is if I had been mentally ill, and imagining this, which I wasnt, he shouldnt have behaved like this anyway. It was entirely inappropriate either way, especially considering that I had just remembered something that was serious, and remembered it in about the most traumatic way possible.
And after all, I went to see him for professional medical help, advice and his opinion. I thought I should, as nobody had specifically seen me for this condition in almost forty years, and I was no doctor or expert on this type of thing, and the devil had been telling me that the nail was rusty, which it isnt, but at the time, I wasnt so sure.
And later instead of helping me, this doctor even was in court to have me put in jail to get my head examined, but for psychological problems not for what had actually happened to me medically concerning the nail and the iLisa.
Jim really wanted to see this picture of the nail, and it became a real area of disagreement between us, and we argued about this daily. So after much back and forth and from what I heard angry discussion with my kids dad Jim and the doctor, the doctor wrote up an order to have a cat scan done. The doctor had it setup to get a cat scan test that is called, a CT Head W/O Contrast done. Jim said he would drive me to the hospital, and we argued all the way there, and then we got to the cat scan area.
The devil was of course behind this, and had the doctor like a marionette, and the devil was pulling the strings and making him say what it wanted. And the devil was amused as it ever could be. There was a huge seemingly display of an assortment of "sick" people parading around going into their devil act,including one girl being wheeled on a stretcher into an elevator, reminding me of what had happened to me. I thought I wonder if this is the devils idea of a joke, but I couldnt ascertain anything, as it would be rather extreme to think this, and that some kid would be put up to this as well. And when Jim and I got to the cat scan area, Jim asked the medical personnel if he would see the picture of my head as soon as its taken. He had even called the hospital ahead of time to see if this was possible to see the picture just as it was taken, and they had said he would. After a little while waiting and all kinds of activity going on, they had me lay down in this machine, and it sounded like they were Xeroxing my head, this scanning noise went over my head over and over again. I closed my eyes during the examination, and hoped if I was right and there was a nail and iLisa, that I would not be hurt, or the iLisa broken, and or exposed to unnecessary radiation that I didnt want or need as it couldnt be healthy for no reason. I avoid this type of thing unless I have to for a real reason that is medically needed. Well instead of seeing the picture of my brain, nothing came up on the screen at all, and although I couldnt see this, they told Jim and I that we would have to talk to our doctor to see the picture. And we left, and they asked if I would like a follow up visit, and I said "NO". So on the way out of the hospital, I told Jim that see, they arent going to show it to me, they wont and I dont want it either. And he was surprised, as he had been promised an immediate view of whatever they saw. I found out years later that this scan was never done, as it was not needed, and again the cult saved me from this stupid devil, and I am real glad about this. I didnt want to do it, and they knew it because as I said they had been watching me all the time.
Jim still wanted to see the picture, and kept after my doctor to send the picture to us, and after awhile he got the picture of this scan from the doctor, and the devil had provided a fake scan of someone elses head, and falsified my medical test just to upset my family so they would think I am crazy, and be angry with me.
And on a family birthday, just before the celebration, the devil had our attorney, try to force me to see this fake scan by shoving it through our mail slot when I wouldnt open the door to him, when I didnt want to see it and refused to open the door and discuss this with him. Even though I didnt see the scan the devil made the attorney share with Jim that the scan had no nail or anything other than a small cyst,which was a lie, and further state that this cyst could be the cause of delusions, or other strange behavior or just be nothing at all.
The devil thrives on sick interaction, and family birthdays are always a reason to exhibit some sick lie to hurt us, and I sensed this and didnt feel like going through this, I had already been locked up twice because of all of this, and I just didnt need it.
I didnt allow this stupid devil interaction, using the attorney as the bad guy, to ruin the family birthday party. After so many years of this, I learned to anticipate this type of thing, and just learned to try to shut it out. And so I didnt look at the fake cat scan, instead I threw it in the closet and I didnt look at it for a year or so.
The doctor and this attorney are both very sorry now that they know the truth, and as shocked as anyone could be that this type of thing could even happen, and of course now they are part of the great alliance to get the devil put away, and they are helping us in any and every way they can.
As I said this stupid plea bargain and the "no matter what agreement" have just gone way too far. It was done for the devils amusement, and to exploit the system and make us sick and or kill us and then to blame others. There was no legitimate reason for the devil to need the so called "best possible chance" for anything. We have all been had, all of us, the devil was the only one to benefit from any of this.
THE THREE ARRESTS FOR EGGING THE DEVILS HOME AND WARNING OTHERS ABOUT HER BEING SICK
The first time that I was arrested, it was for throwing the eggs in the fall of 2007, and the other 2 times it was because I had missed the court dates for this. I didnt go to the court dates by intention, as I knew what was in store for me, and frightened but still determined to get her, no matter what. The second time that I was arrested, and again for not showing up at my court date for the egg throwing back in the fall of 2007, I was actually tricked into going into the police station to warn the police what she was up to, only to be surprised instead and attacked, arrested and sent to jail again. Each time, I was sent to jail that day, no actual scheduled court date, they had me appear in front of a judge for about 5 minutes, asked me what I had to say, I had no attorney present. I wouldnt say anything in court. I am not supposed to, so then that became the reason I am crazy, and had to be locked up immediately, and then they took me off to jail and the jail mental hospital, tossing me back and forth between both places, moving me every few days or so. My family couldnt understand what was going on, and were very concerned. They sent me money so I could buy food or something, and I never got it. The bail they put up to get me out the first two times was never returned, and there was no bail the third arrest. I had to stay there,locked up. I think this is because I had finally figured out a way to protect myself, and being locked up provided the devil a way to continue her addiction of hurting me. I couldnt protect myself in prison or the prison mental hospital. She continued to shoot me so it hurt me badly, and continued to communicate with me, as seen in the new "it movie",that I have put on the internet to explain a little of the way she has been abusing me. Some I am not. The third time I was arrested again it was for not showing up in court for the egg throwing, I was again warning the neighbors about the dangerous person that the devil is, and I wanted them to know that she was in our neighborhood, and that I knew things that they didnt know, and using non violent means only, I was showing them the things that she had done about the Helen Brach murder and how to protect themselves, as she was telling me she was hurting them, and had plans to hurt more of them. And when I went outside for the first time in months after being really hurt, including having blood drip down one of my legs from her shooting me, and then being shot at where the blood was dripping from my leg, among other places like my arms and a wisdom tooth that I needed to have extracted, which was excruciating to have it shot at. A like swat team of around 20 officers, tackled me, I ran for a patch of grass on my neighbors house when I saw them come out of hiding to get me. I didnt want to hurt my head again, and it was a good thing as if I landed on cement or the street, I might not be alright or even here today. I know they would be sorry now, and I am glad I did this also. They knocked me down hard to handcuff me, and they were very violent, they took me away in a police car speeding down my street. I was handcuffed and thrown into the back of a a police car, as if I was "it".I was handcuffed with my hands behind my back, and scared he was going to hurt me, so I said to the cop driving the speeding police car right down my street, like they had a terrible criminal with them, "be careful, I have a nail in my head". The cop who was driving the car said to me "well that is where we are taking you, to get the nail taken out of your head". I said you cant, and I was as terrified as I may have ever been. I had never been assaulted like that in my entire, not by anyone, not even close, and not in my entire life. I am trying to forgive them as well, as I know it was the devil who had them do this, I am trying to.
As I sitting here writing this part of the story, today February 4th, 2011, it reminds me exactly of what was going on when I was arrested in the fall of 2007. The same things are happening, all over again. Only this time, I think we have it straight. I thought so that time also. She had many people give me signs the first time that all was fine, and that the police were going to help me, and then they didnt, so I wont believe it again, until she is actually taken away. I am not going to stop, just like the first time back in 2007. No matter what.
From what I was told the doctors and shrinks were paid off and possibly these inmates too, definitely for certain including people in these support groups, and they would not only lose everything but would be prosecuted for treason. Now this was hard for me to believe when I was told this, I mean why me? Again I was only told this once and for about 5 or 10 minutes, and then I could never ever verify any of this again. So it seemed I was wrong, as why would everyone be lying to me, a computer consultant, and animal caregiver, I had no great power or enemies I thought, no reason for this sort of thing to involve me, I reasoned that it may have been a dream or some false memory. I had to take care of my kids, work 7 days a week, I couldnt dwell on this, and I certainly couldnt get anyone to talk about it. It just didnt happen. And I had to go on with my life or it would fall apart, my kids depended on me, they were small then. So I would forget it and go on with my life. It was too crazy sounding anyway, therefore it couldnt have happened. So it didnt.If you read my story "One From Amongst the Flowers Wild", you would see that I had no idea how this could even involve me, seemed like one of these dreadful lies and stories, that people kept telling me. I wasnt given a choice anyway, it was just told to me one time, for about ten minutes, and then I never heard about it again. Every once in awhile I would try to contact an old friend, or family and ask them about this, and not only did they lie, but attacked me in intense anger, putting me on the defensive, hurt and sorry for bothering them with these stupid false memories. So I would forget about it again, and again and I would go on with my life.
As my father stated to me one time, when I now believe the devil did this stupid plea bargain, in an annoyed tone of voice, as if good God how can this keep happening, and before he had to never talk about it again, "Lisa I would like to know, and I dont think I am going to be around then, it looks like I wont, when this is over I would like to know , just what did they think the fight was all about?". I forgot about this, until recently when I started wondering the same thing, when all these people start attacking me in the jail and on the streets, where I work, everywhere. They were trying to hurt me as if I am a dangerous criminal, as if I am her, they were lying and making things up that I never said, accused of things I didnt do, and saying I am mentally ill, instead of giving me help and compassion as it should have been. It was very sick, and only a devil could come up with something like this. The stupid agreement of this pathetic devil stated additional requirements, some of which I wont mention, and are ongoing at this time, some are in the news. One of the requirements that I will mention, and again it sounds nuts, but she is mentally ill and so the agreement is as well, I had to figure it out on my own, then forget it, and then remember it again.IMPORTANT PART I MUST LOSE MY HOUSE BY AUCTION OR OTHER MEANS BEFORE THE DEVIL IS ARRESTED
I was told at this time, another requirement was that I had to lose everything first, as this had happened to to the family that we had lost at Quinibeck that were also living on this money from the reward, even though they had the story backwards. I had to lose everything, my friend made this clear to me, and she further stated that I had to believe it. Then I would get everything, its very sick she kept saying totally disgusted at what had transpired. This was around the 1980s when I was told this, and I said to my friend " I have nothing, what is there to lose?", she said "well you will, and then you will have to lose it all first." I was told this friend was somehow related to me as well. I do believe this now in 2011, as when my (adoptive) parents passed away in the 1990s, they left me enough money for a house and more. It was enough to retire on for the rest of my life.In around 2007 was when I gave half of the money away to sick children. I still hadnt lost my house as per the stupid plea bargain the devil made, this hadnt been completed yet. I had to sell the house, and lose that money too, as the people who made this agreement with her, had their house actually put up for auction and almost lost all their things. If it wasnt for the stupid agreement, and our family having to give them more of the money, they would have. Again these were the people that we lost from my adoptive family, that goes back to Quinibeck.So when I got out of the 3 months jail and mental hospital jail, as I had fulfilled that part of the stupid plea bargain, I still had more to lose to complete this. I had to lose everything, everything.
GETTING OUT OF JAIL AFTER OVER 3 MONTHS
When I first got out of the jail, abruptly things changed, no more feeling like I was being shot at, and no more conditions as described in the "It Movie" were present, so I began to believe that more and more, that nothing did happen, and I just gave away all the families money, and I was wrong about everything. In fact our family discussed this, that if ever someone in the family starts acting like thinking they had a reward such as mine inside of them, or being shot at or anything we were to automatically get help for each other.
Jims dad would call me while I was working at night, and kind of supported me, asked me how things were going. I told him how all the arguing in the family was making me shake and shake more when they yelled at me, and it became difficult to do anything, which I had to, we had no money at all. He told Jim to leave me alone and stop all this fighting, to try to support me through the change, its difficult but this too would pass, and that men need to understand this, it was part of life. And that his wife Chris said that it all could be menopause that I had gone through, that sometimes that women who go through "the change", have feelings not unlike what I was experiencing. I had just gone through this, with no known changes, no hot flashes, nothing at all. I thought this was because of the want to f#ck you gene. Then I thought she might be right, I looked it up on the internet and it spoke about feelings of shocks that radiate in your head and go through all of your body, and problems mentally, it sounded like what I had experienced. I started getting mad at my general practitioner, who hadnt really explained this to me. I surmised that if I had gone to a woman doctor, maybe that this would never have happened. And then I decided this was what it was. I was mad at myself for not going to a different doctor about this condition. I even told people that I worked with that I had a big problem with "the change", and I had no idea that it could be such a big deal.
Besides, the electric shock feeling and the constant and unwanted behavior as described in "The It Movie" had just stopped, it was gone,
THE DEVIL AND THE ONLY NICE SHRINK AND ME
When I first got out of jail for the third time which was after staying for over three months, I was made to go for a year to many shinks and social workers. To be sure that I wouldnt "slip" back into believing all these so called crazy ideas such as that I had a nail in my head, and the iLisa and such. I didnt tell anyone about this. So I went to the local mental health clinic, and was lucky to find one descent shrink. I am thankful for this at least. And she was an adoptive mom also, so of course the devil had abused her in a terrible way. She was at least normal, and that is saying a lot for a shrink, she didnt have preconceived ideas, and didnt hurt me in anyway. I had to see her for one year, about once or so a month at first, to monitor my stupid medication that I didnt want to take anyway. And she didnt even know that the pills she had given me were actually not even real. And I had thought that maybe the medication that I thought I was on and that she prescribed for me were working. But I found out later they were actually sugar pills also same as when I was locked up, and now I was told it was Seroquel, which is for Schizophrenia or psychosis. So I thought maybe this stuff had worked, and that is also why I reasoned these shooting feelings that I had been feeling when I was locked up had stopped abruptly. It had stopped quite suddenly when I left Elgin Mental Hospital, at the end of the over 3 months I was there. I had to also see 2 other people, one at the same place, and she was more like a social worker or something, and I had to see her about once a week, she was okay also and did me no harm. The devil is really going out of its way to shake me around, and try to make it as difficult as possible for me as I am writing this exact paragraph, including shooting at me as I write about the court appointed social worker, named Diane L. I also had to see another social worker type person once a month, through the court system,and she was alright, but through no fault of her own, I started to feel bad about myself that I had to go to this court place every month, when I hadnt meant to harm anyone. And had never been in any trouble before. I didnt like that she kept saying to me, things like "lets talk about what you had done, and how you got here, so "you dont slip back into this again, you had so much going for you, Lisa, and I dont want to see this happen again". I told her I wasnt going to keep talking about it, and I blamed my attorney saying he said I didnt have to, which was not true, I just said that, and I said that it was effecting my self esteem which it really was, so after a few times of this she stopped asking after I told her exactly this "I am not going to make it, if you keep asking me this". And then, she stopped asking, and that helped. But at times and much later, on and off, I thought I did have a nail in my head maybe , and maybe more. Something ~had~ happened to me. I started thinking that I was feeling bad about myself, and that changed how I felt about her. Then she had me read a book, sort of like a book report, and then I was to discuss this with her. It had to be about Cognitive Therapy, so I chose a book, letting her know in no uncertain terms what was going on, so I chose,"Self-Esteem: A Proven Program of Cognitive Techniques for Assessing, Improving, and Maintaining Your Self-Esteem ", and I bought it both in paperback,and I downloaded it from audible.com and I listened to it. And after all this, discussing it several times, she never had me give her the book report, which was to be verbal. But I prepared for it. So this changed my perception of her, as it was changing my perception of myself, If I had met her in different surroundings and in a different situation, it would have been different, and I would have liked her.
I was upset with myself for not getting Menopause diagnosed correctly, and wasting time thinking that I remembered correctly, what I incorrectly thought everyone had said to me, when they all sounded so upset years ago. Maybe it hadnt happened at all. It began to negatively effect my self esteem.
I went with my kids dad Jim to the attorneys office to consult with him about my getting and staying out of jail plan. The attorney had a huge magnet in his office, and suggested that he or I take the magnet, and put it up against my head, to prove that I didnt believe that there was actually a nail in my head. I would have. But Jim, jumped in and said NO, you could hurt her, there is a nail in her head. He wouldnt allow it. I am thankful now, as it is a large magnet, not a normal one at all, and I have no reason to do something like this. I realize that I did believe at that time, that there was no nail in my head, and so that part of the plea agreement should have been met. I of course realize now, that the attorney was told to do this by the devil, as he is a nice guy and would never want to hurt me, or think of anything like this, it didnt occur to me then. And I reason now, that the devil hoped to frame this attorney, and hoped it could blame any problem on that, if not cause it.
IMPORTANT INFORMATION ON STRANGE PACKAGE DELIVERED TO MY JOB IN GLENVIEW
In addition to being shot at, when I was at the Glenview job, a short time before the devil returned on Monday, December 13, 2010 a strange package arrived and was delivered in person, and it was delivered to me. I believe the person delivering this package was a short female heavily dressed in a snow suit, not our regular guy or anything. I didn’t open it as was normal for me, its another employees job to do this, so I left it there unopened. The employee who is the office manager arrived and said oh lets open this package, and asked me to do this I believe, I opened it and found a small silver tin, with the name of a company embossed in the tin that begins with a “P”, and I wont put the name of the company on the internet as I believe it could be poison, and I don’t believe it was from this company at all. I am as sure it was not as I can be. I believe the devil sent the package as I just felt this employee was a little too interested in getting me to open this package and then repeatedly tried to get me to sample some of the “gift” inside looking like plain white but large tylenol. It was entirely intuition but something was just not right at first and that is why I had already gone to the website of the usps.com and checked the tracking number, and nothing came up, there was no tracking number for this item in the site, it didn’t exist. I checked several times, thinking maybe I had it wrong, typed it in wrong, but no, it just didn’t exist. And I wouldn’t sample any of this. I told this employee before she ate any the same thing, that there was something funny, the tracking number on the package did not exist and I further stated that I had once heard and maybe even been sent drink boxes where they made people sick or something I said, and I warned her, and told her to warn the head of the company. I felt it was really weird that she wouldn’t listen, and ignored everything I said. And even the next day when I got to the job, there was this box again left open, as if I should eat one. We shared food all the time there, and I never had any problem before, but something was different this time, something just didn’t feel right. I think it is the work of the devil now, if there was anything wrong with it, and using methods described in the It Movie, the devil told me there was rat poison in there somehow. I should have mentioned this before, but there is so much to go over, and I am just trying to stay alive. And the devil said the employees were told not to eat certain ones in the box, now the devil says they did not any, and I believe they did not. I hope they are fine, and I am told they are , and that they didn’t eat any for real. I didn’t even touch any of the white Tylenol looking things, and I certainly didn’t eat any either.
WHEN THE BEHAVIOR AS DESCRIBED IN THE IT MOVIE RETURNED ON DEC 13, 2010
The shooting, and all the devils behavior had just disappeared, until Monday December 13, 2010 when I was at my 2 jobs in Northfield and in Glenview and it suddenly started again. I had been working a half day at one job in Glenview, and a half day at another job in Northfield. I did this from Monday thru Friday, and sometimes on Saturday, and had been doing this since the beginning of 2009. Then on Monday, December 13th of 2010, it all started again, and at work.
First it started at the job in Northfield where I was from 8am until noon. I dont know exactly what time it started, but it hurt and she was shooting right at my head where the nail is. She must have been close, and I couldnt sit still, I didnt get much work done either. And I left early about at 11:30am, as I couldnt take it anymore. I didnt tell anyone I was working with, as I didnt know what to say, so I just left, and then other things started on the road, with people driving dangerously, running around like junior dorks playing 007. and I knew something was up. I didnt know what though, I didnt get shot while I was driving, but people were going crazy, tailgating me, making their self known for some unknown reason, something was going on. It seemed dangerous on the road, people almost slammed into the side of my car, and other things, so I didnt stop for lunch or anything like usual. I just drove directly to the next job, and got off the road. I got to the job in Glenview, they asked me how things were going, and I said, its a madhouse out there. not explaining anything. And then after a little awhile thats when the shooting started again, and she had to be close by. I am not certain when it started there, but once it started it was real bad, and she had to be close by. I didnt tell anyone, but I tried to let the people know what was going on without saying anything. I had to use what was available to do this, and this was an office where I was. For example, I took a rubber band and kept shooting at the stapler, with it, and I shot it at the coffee cup with the picture of the computer with butterflies on it which Jim drew for me to represent the reward, all the pirates and pirate ship pictures too, I made coffee cups out of this design, and tshirts, sweatshirts and other things. He is an artist and I can not draw at all, he just had drawn the exact thing that was in my mind, without any real explanation. So I had put a coffee cup with this design on it at each job, I call this design, or the reward the iLisa, so a coffee cup with the iLisa was on the desk there, and I shared the desk with someone, and we put pens in it. I also used the paper clips too, I think I shot at them also. Then I went in the storage room, and started throwing around empty boxes. Next I took push pins, and went in the file room, and put one on the calendar on my birthday. I put the push pin right on March 2nd. Then I took the push pins, and made a number one, by lining up the push pins in a vertical row. Also later I would slam the stapler as if I was stapling something every time she shot at my head. Again, I left a little early, and the same thing repeated itself on the road. On my way home, on Winnetka road, people were driving very dangerously. I knew something was up. When I got to a four way stop sign intersection on the way home, traveling east. I just had a funny feeling about the other three cars stopped at this intersection, it was intuition really. So I waited for all of them to go first, before I went. I just thought one of them wanted to maybe smash into me. There was a huge delay for them to go, and it was their turn to go, as if they wanted me to go first. So, after all the trouble on the road, it just seemed like something was up, something was not right. So I waited for all of them to go, and nobody was at the intersection. The one on my right, finally went, and I saw her face, and she looked angry, and reminded me of Laurie dann a little. After this I stayed home, and didnt go out again, and I just knew it was back, and all the behavior that had gone away had started up again. Everything.I had been told by everyone that the
The devil is a real sociopath today and right now, February 6, 2011, its very sorry.........that it got caught, and only for this reason, the devil is not sorry at all for what it did, and admits this. It just admitted it again now. There is no remorse, nothing at all. And it just shot me in the stomach to let me know this. Its just sorry it cant continue hurting people in sick ways.
Then the next day, Tuesday, December 14th, 2010, I stayed home, and I have only gone out twice since this time at all and only to get a bit of food, for five minutes, and another 5 minutes to mail something, and nobody has been allowed to visit me either, and at all, or speak to me other than the cashier at the store counting my money.
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2011 UPDATE
I am here alone, with it constantly and relentlessly communicating with me in unwanted and sick ways, almost all day and night with me as seen in the It Movie this whole time, I cant even see how it sleeps at all, maybe its heroin withdrawal makes it worse, I dont know, it says it cant sleep for a lot of reasons, this story for one thing, and it likes to hurt me, and no drugs. It just told me it nothing to share with anyone reading this story, or anyone else at all. And today is February 6th, 2011. Of course the good people, some are in Scientology, are watching me, and quietly and gently let me know they are there using undisclosed methods of communicating with me, and as it should be. I am glad and thankful to have the cult and the other good people help at a time like this. And I have figured out a way to reduce the pain of the shooting, through creative means, and since its under house arrest, its 99% easier for me to use these creative means to protect myself. Then, when I was reading the chicagotribune.com website on December 14th 2010, or a day later, and I saw a picture of a woman, and remember it is watching and monitoring everything I do, and the woman that I saw looked just like the woman on the right that I felt was going to smash into me on my way home from work as I just described. I have a picture of her on the right, and a victim of this vicious attack on the left that I got from that day, as it just seemed important, as she was involved in terrible things involving children, mutilation and abuse, horrible things. And the devil told me using methods described in the It Movie, that she knew her, and was going to do something to me. She also told me that she had done another vicious murder in New York, it happened the day before which was on December 12, 2010, involving a lot of money, and although I dont remember his last name , his name was Mark, and it involved 4 billion dollars. He had been found hanged by a dog leash from a bar. And through means available using or actually abusing the iLisa, and with great enthusiasm and excitement, she showed me what she did, it was sickening. So I stayed home. Here is a link to that picture of the woman and child as described above.
DECEMBER 12, 2010 IMPORTANT DAY
On Sunday, December 12, 2010 I suddenly remembered that I did have the iLisa, as I remembered back in 1980 or so, when I had actually seen a picture of the nail in my head. And then there was no turning back again. Again one memory brought back the next, and I was certain of the reward, the iLisa from Dr Jose Delgado. I knew it was this doctor, as I recognized him when I saw his picture, I remember him after the operation, I just did. And it was watching me then, and as I looked at his picture something struck me about him, and I scrolled back past his picture, and looked at him again, like hey this must be the guy. And it using methods in the It Movie, said yes it was, but I didnt really trust the turd. Then a few weeks or so later, I read something on the internet, and I remember asking him something when I came to, after being asleep after the operation, I asked Dr Delgado if he would marry me, and nobody else that I remember would even have known this, I dont remember anyone else being in the room, and as I never told anyone at all about this proposal. I hadnt even remembered this until I had read it on the internet, but I am certain I did ask this of him. I had searched the internet about him in 2007, and I found the following quote from a book or something, "And he had done experiments on children as young as 12", and that a boy had asked him if he would marry him and I think it may have said coming out of anesthesia", now I knew this was me, as nobody else had known, and I thought they were referring to my "want to f*uck you gene".
The devil really created problems for Dr Delgado, as he knew the truth, and did all he could to protect me and the program. It even made a big lie as if it was me, to break into the iLisa, and be able to mess with me as it has been able to. This is what it did to get this control, it pretended that I was in an emergency situation and needing an immediate operation, and in the rush and immediacy of the request, the information had been given out, to save me and that was all a lie. It just does things like this to hurt people, and control everyone, and there was no emergency. Instead of the iLisa being given with good intentions, and to help my condition of having a nail in my head, it turned the whole thing around, saying that the iLisa or the reward was not given for these reasons. The devil said it was made to have this device and against its will. Dr Delgado should be given the recognition and respect that he deserves, he helped me when nobody else could, and I wanted to participate in the program, and I am glad to have done so. The devil takes all good intentions, and tries to make something bad of it.A MEDAL FOR DR JOSE DELGADO FROM ME
I think Dr Delgado should be given a medal, for helping me, being a wonderful person, and for his brilliant work, and for bravery, honor, tenacity, integrity, doing a great job and for seeing this project through as he promised me. He would have kept the whole thing secret, as I would have, and its not the doctors fault or mine either. I give Dr Jose Delgado a medal myself. And someday I hope and plan to dedicate a medical facility in honor of his name. Say hi to him for me! I have recently been emailing Dr Delgado as well, sending him links to this story, and I know he is getting my messages. Again thanks Jose for everything.IT LIED TO EVERYONE INCLUDING PEOPLE WHO WROTE STORIES AND I AM APOLOGIZING TO DR DELGADO FOR THEM AS I KNOW THEY WOULD WANT
I figured out later that the description in the book was referring to it, and that the book was a lie, and based on its lies. however this quote did help me to identify this doctor in my mind, as I knew that I am the one who had proposed to Dr Jose Delgado, and I knew it happened, and later I had it confirmed by professionals in the program in person in the fall of 2007 right before I was arrested for throwing eggs at its former home. December 12th is also my anniversary, as I was married to Jim on December 12, 1979 in San Francisco. I had written in my notebook, on this day, Dec 12, 2010 to not forget about the picture that I saw of the nail. And I also wrote in this notebook that I carried around in my black backpack everywhere, and dated it Dec 12, 2010, that "If anything happens to me that I donate everything I had and would ever have to Scientology, and the good people and my friends and family, and that Eric my brother be fine and his family with what they need and want."The only picture of the nail in my head that I had ever seen, I saw back in 1980s,give or take a month or so before or after this. I had gone to a local dentist in the Chicago area, a real nice guy, and they had done dental xrays. When I came back for my next appointment, this dentist showed me a picture of a large nail in someones head, it was a dental xray, and it was my xray he said, it had my name on the xray. And this dentist said to me, I dont know how the nurse could have made such a mistake, that this was my xray, and getting a picture like this she must have missed the area she should have been trying to xray altogether. She must have made a mistake, and looking very confused, he asked me if I remember anything or could this be me. I hadnt remembered the nail in head at that time, in hindsight something about it was a bit frightening, and in hindsight it almost seemed like I should somewhere in the back of my mind, but no, nothing . I just didnt remember it at all. So I said no to the dentist, and not until 2007 did I remember it again. I have recently been trying to contact his office , and him to find him to help me straighten things out. It has admitted getting this nurse to do this, taking the xray like that, and threatening her or something, I dont know how, but it did put the nurse up to this, repeating its behavior that it had been up to since I was nine years old, it was hoping that this would frighten me into remembering this tragic event. Using ways described in the It Movie, it admitted this when I asked it about the xray. Its limited in its abilities to tell me things, as limited as it is to only doing rotten things in the world. It is like a stupid it doll, as it can only do about one or two things.
I did go see this dentist where I had the picture of the nail in my head taken right after I got out of the 3 months being locked up to fix my tooth that it had been shooting at, but he wouldnt fix the tooth, no doubt the devil wanted him to do something evil, and he wouldnt cooperate. I wouldnt either. I dont either have to wonder, I just know. I also told him that I had remembered who had referred me to him back in around 1979, but he didnt care. I had thought that he had asked me this a long time ago, as he said if I ever remember to tell him. In any case, I definitely remember the picture without a doubt, and that much I am certain. I gave him a link to this story, and as I said he is a great dentist, and a nice guy, so I know he will help out in anyway he can. I later found out that It had said it was her xray, and that was part of her lying , it is me. One of my old boyfriends had been dating a nurse from this dentists office, and disappeared not long after this. In any case, I am sure that I saw the picture there and now I am sure that the nail in head xray was mine.ME RETURNING TO WORK AFTER BEING LOCKED UP FOR 3 MONTHS
Next I looked for a job, and I put my house up for sale, my plan which the devil knew was to give that money away too once it was sold. So I went back to work for over 2 years, starting in the fall of 2009 after I got out of the jail and jail mental hospital. I would like to thank the 3 people that I worked for, they were good and honest people, and for this I am tremendously grateful. It meant a lot to me. I had no money left, no investments, nothing, nothing in the bank at all. I had sold everything, and given it away. I still had the house, and that had to go, or the plea bargain wasnt satisfied, as I had to have nothing at all. I had given all the money away right before the devil had me locked up and arrested for throwing eggs and making crosses on my driveway, writing Herpes with an arrow in chalk on the sidewalk pointing to the house that the devil was in at the time, and nothing violent or anything that could or would hurt anyone. I did this to warn people, to protect them, this is a major trigger for the devil. The devil had been communicating to me that it was going to give Herpes to a neighbor, friends and others, it thought it was incredibly funny. I couldnt take it.. I couldnt just stand by and do nothing. I wanted to save them and others from this same fate that had happened to my family and friends. I just couldnt take it anymore. I did it because she had asked me to give her my biological eggs in the 1980s. I did throw eggs at the devils house, but nothing that would hurt anyone, she was shooting at me, and I was bleeding and nobody helped. I did nothing back, and I have never shot at anyone in my life with any type of gun, only with a plain regular water gun..ever, and even now I have never. I dont even watch movies with guns or shooting, I never did, and my friends would always wonder why. I didnt know, I just found it disturbing. I am using my brains to fight back and the truth. As my adoptive mom said before she passed away. " Lisa somethings I am going to take with me, but I want you to know one thing, remember whatever happens in the end, the truth is the truth is the truth, and you have that on your side." I didnt know what she meant then, but I do now. I tried to get arrested to stop all this, I was in real physical pain and I had to, in order to save my life, and to keep this whole thing from going on for decades more, with many more casualties, it was a non violent protest with good intentions. I gave about half of all my money my parents had left me away. I gave it to children who are in need of medical care. Now this is a major trigger for the devil, the thought of giving money to children in need of medical care, is against all of its beliefs, it is a major trigger to it, it is exactly what someone who has Munchausen By Proxy would never do, I did this a few years ago, this was quite a bit, and that is why I am letting this happen now, by intention. I am doing this, as I do believe I am losing everything, for certain. And only then they will take her away for good, then I get everything. I do believe this, as per the stupid plea bargain, I have to, and do. I didnt agree to this stupid plea bargain of the devil and all that it entailed, I was never even consulted until it had been done, I have never been given a choice, only told what happened. If I am offered a choice, the choice that I choose, I am never given, then if I ask about it, I am told nobody asked you anything, I dont know what you are talking about, as if I am mentally ill, cant remember right. They become annoyed and angry if I keep asking, so I dont, there was hardly anyone left anyway, and less every day. In addition, my friend from long ago who must have known something, I dont think he knew the whole story, but he said to me "Lisa, you will need a lot of therapy in the future, he also with sort of foresight said "I cant wait to see how this story ends". I said same, and asked "What is going to happen?". He answered that he didnt know, but now I kind of think he had a premonition that this was me with the reward, as he knew her and knew nothing like this had happened to her, this was a friend from Windsor Mountain. He is the adopted boyfriend in my "One From Amongst the Flowers Wild" story where I use the fake name "Danny".And another friend of mine that the devil knew and threatened extensively and intensely, who is from this area, told me that the devil had had nothing ever happen to it, not even remotely like whatever story it had come up with, and that she should be ashamed, but further stated that the devil has no shame. She and her family had known her for her entire life, saying its story was ridiculous, still she seemed to have the story backwards. She told me another stupid requirement of this plea bargain was that every time something good happens, then something bad has to happen to you, and further stated that its "going to be a tooth for a tooth and an eye for an eye, and its going to be a blind and toothless world in the future, its sick, and Lisa, nobody can help you, nobody. I agree now, it is sick. I want NO therapy however!!!!! I am fine.THE DEVILS INTENSE HATRED FOR RELIGION
Many were shocked to find out she is a Satanist and a Sadist. And she was saying or doing anything, even stating that she is a Christian, which she has an intense hate for praying, the Bible, Jesus Christ and Christianity as if they were her true enemies. And her main interest was in keeping the truth of what had happened, and my money away from me, and those who could take if from her. And which they never would have agreed to, they were all lied to as well. To say she did not want me to find out is an understatement. She has become obsessed with keeping the lies. And she has threatened anyone who leaked this to anyone.
THE DEVIL USES THE THREAT OF TREASON TO SILENCE PEOPLE, WHEN ITS TRUTHFULLY EXTORTION CAUSED BY THE DEVIL
She has nothing to lose by lying, and to the bitter end, hurting as many as possible. If they didn’t heed her threat and had listened to me, they would find out she was lying, falsifying and impersonating me. What she has done, could be considered treason. Her story about the nail she said was in her head was really me. And that it was truly me who had been given the reward as well. She got away with this because, I just hadn’t remembered it yet, and I’ve only remembered it recently. I was in a coma, and didn’t remember. I have only remembered this since around May of the year 2007. She knew that it is only I who could disprove her, which is why she threatened people, and told them to stay away from me, including family. And this is what I am doing at this time. She has no legal right to steal, impersonate and defraud me.THE DEVIL AND ITS MURDERS AND MENTAL ILLNESS
The perpetrator of this crime, has been very violent and dangerous, and has committed many other violent and vicious crimes against others. And she has also been diagnosed as mentally ill through most of her life. I cannot emphasize enough, that for her, this is a very sensitive issue, and she will deny she has any problem whatsoever, and that “Lisa” whom she alleges that she sees as an extension of herself, and is the bad one, is whom she blames. One murder included several women, and was so vicious that she had strangled a woman, set fires, made it look like it was the womans fault when actually they both had been burned and died, switched bodies with another person she murdered, made the family believe that one of the women was still alive, later to find that the woman they were visiting in the hospital, was not their family at all. The body of one of the women at least had to be exhumed and by then one of the stupid deals had been done. She then committed insurance fraud again as she had before. from the arsons and murders disguising them as a death. Many years ago she had burned up horses alive in barns and did the same thing, the lies kept covering up other lies and nobody could stop the devil.Then to further cover these crimes up she had everyone lie about this, threatened everyone who knew about this, which was extensive, and threatened them with death for treason, whether they accidentally or otherwise reveal anything, including for knowingly or unknowingly have any information revealed to anyone and in anyway, discussing this with anyone, and including school officials where one of the mothers of the women worked and had contact with me.
The husband of one of these women was originally framed and blamed and jailed, as is protocol for the devil and its use of modus operandi. And the couples child was endangered during one of the fires. Only after the one womens body was exhumed by law enforcement did it become obvious, that the devil was to blame, and the stupid plea bargain had been made, and the no matter what clause had already taken effect. This excluded any possibility of going back on the deal that had been made, "no matter what". Again once all the stupid requirements are met, she is arrested, and some say put to death "no matter what". And from what I understand this is also how the devil ended up with the tracking chip being put inside of her. And she fought this, as she didnt want to be controlled like this. Those in the know about the truth that she had no nail in her head or iLisa device inside of her, and that the devil was just extorting everyone to get out of this and other crimes and murders, demanded the tracking chip be put in her, as she was lying and then knew this, so she could be watched, and not be able to get away through any means, when the time has come to get her, and now it has. My old boyfriend who knew me since I was 16 years old, who had the story backwards that the devil had the iLisa reward and the nail in its head, told me that " he is sorry, and that he had to disappear and that when I see him again, that hew wants me to know one thing, that they are going to put her away for the rest of its life". This friend of mine had been badly abused by this devil, made sick, his whole family made sick, and this is how the devil covered all that up. The main reason that I am doing this and trying to stop this devil, and putting this on the internet, is as someone once said:"All that is required for evil to prevail is for good people to do nothing"
Here is an excerpt below from one of the articles, one of the devils murders, and although the whole story is not here, you can read it for yourself. These murders happened back in September 1986. I have blanked out the names, locations and all identifying information to protect the families privacy. This is the work of the devil.
This is an excerpt of the article:
At the request of the police and the medical examiners office,they reopened the file. Having first ruled the death was accidental,
they reclassified the death a homicide last week,
and added ligature strangulation as a cause.
The detectives went out of state,
where the body was exhumed.
End of excerpt from article
THE DEVIL MURDERS FRIENDS OF MY FAMILY
The devils murders go back to the 70s and 80s, and havent stopped as of this writing. One of the first murders that I heard about involved friends of my family. And it was made to look like a suicide, and the persons own fault, again the devil uses the same methods, called modus operandi, almost each time. The woman was brutally shot over and over again, in her body and head. And when she lived even after being shot, and in a way that hardly anyone would have lived through, including in the head, she was shot again until she did die.
Again the same scenario repeats itself, I am talking to my friend, and he has the same exasperated tone of voice that I unfortunately have gotten to recognize after such atrocities happen. He explained this situation to me as if he had seen it himself, or something. Not long after this, he had to disappear from my life. And he and this womans family are a large part of the alliance to get the devil, as it got away with it, by framing, blaming and then avoiding all responsibility for this crime. And as these friends of the family, had the whole story backwards, that the devil had a nail in its head and had the iLisa there was no way to prove it or do anything about it. Now there is.
OTHER MURDERS AND POISONINGS THAT THE DEVIL IS RESPONSIBLE FOR
(AND ANOTHER THING: There is no such person as Sheri Lyn Taylor, this ~is~ the devil-You now know, why this was done, who did this, and how this was all covered up, please see previous information-please read the article below)
Dann Friend Arrested,
Surrenders Gun
May 27, 1988|By Robert Enstad and Ray Gibson. George Papajohn, Steve Johnson and Daniel Egler contributed to this report.
THE DEVIL CREATES THE PROBLEM,AND THEN ACTS AS IF IT ~SAVING~ YOU.
WHY PEOPLE BELIEVED THE DEVIL ABOUT HAVING A NAIL IN ITS HEAD AND MORE
I cant say I wonder why so many would think that it has a nail in its head, and not me. It seems like it has brain damage, has a violent temper, using people to get sick by intention, blaming all problems on having a nail in its head, and its not smart, even to the point of being absolutely stupid, repeatedly exhibiting behavior that is self defeating, and showing no common sense, besides she said it was her. At least at the time it seemed like a possible explanation. What else could it be?
And this boyfriend knew me real well, and had for many years, not only did I not say anything about any nail or special program, but I showed at least common sense, outstanding math skills, no real problems physical or mental. I was doing well in college, and learning computers, working and carrying on with my life fully functioning. Outside of a real miracle, how could I have a nail in my head and be like this? I could see how he and others might think this. I would too.THE DEVIL AND SOCIOPATHY
Most people who have known her for years, just see her as a Sociopath, not primarily a multiple personality with a disorder at all. They see her as just a Sociopath who has lied about unconscionable things. And most don’t believe her excuse that she is switching into different personalities. The profile of her as a Sociopath seems consistent, and the most valid for most. Just as the definition of Sociopaths is so defined, most who listen to her feel she is so convincing, that at first they feel empathy for her. However after checking her story out, those who thought they should help her, then not only become against her, but form huge alliances to stop her from hurting the community and nation. They call law enforcement, get her arrested, and spend huge sums of money to stop her and this entire situation. And this is what has happened.
Tales of Tomorrow for the Devil
As I mentioned I had to straighten out the story, because the story was backwards, but the stupid no matter what plea bargain deal still existed, and so this is why I ended up in this situation. She didnt want to give up and was threatening me and anyone trying to help, as she is now, and I am doing all I can to just stay alive. This is the USA, and you would think this could not happen, but it has. She is trying to injure me or take my life, as she is sick and should be locked up before something happens. that is of a permanent nature to my emotional or physical health. This is serious and please help. UPDATE: THE DEVIL IS UNDER HOUSE ARREST, AND IS BEING CONTROLED, AND THINGS ARE NOT STOPPED YET, BUT MUCH MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS, AND HELP. THANK YOU AND THANK GOD.You can check back regularly for daily updates to the story.
I thank God several times a day that I have no lasting problems from this. And I take nothing for granted, to me this is a true miracle. Again I thank God for this, as this is the only possible logical explanation. Now back to your regularly scheduled program. Finish 2011 update.The occasional sonic booms. The freezing mornings, waking up to "Ida" playing Reveille, jumping in the lake and swimming around trying to warm up. Listening to other bugle calls across the lake at other camps. I remember going across the lake in the canoes to see what was up at the boys camp, always fun. You see, I really haven't changed all that much, just a little older. Also for those of you who were there, I remember that also.
I remember how we had inspection to be sure we had kept our bed and area clean. Well I am fairly sure I got the badge for worst hospital corners ever in Quinibeck history. Now that is a badge I'm proud to wear. I still can't make them.
I remember getting in trouble for ditching vespers and ditching those very strict swimming lessons. Going to church for the donuts. I was always starving there. Don't tell on us, but one of the kids in my cabin was sent a package from home with goodies, and we hid it in the cabin, and we all shared it. We were told that we were forbidden to have food in our cabin, or a bear would come in and get us. We were so hungry it was worth the risk, although I do remember on a pitch black Vermont night, listening to an imaginary bear rustling around outside the cabin, and wondering if as soon as I fell asleep if the bear would come in and get our goodies.
My mother who is gone now, also went to Quinibeck as did several other relatives. It was a family tradition for the girls to go, which is why I was lucky enough to find my self there. My mom went as a camper and later a counselor in the 1930's. She told me she went to camp with the Boyardee family, you know the canned spaghetti, "Chef Boyardee". Not sure of the spelling.
I'm so glad my cabin-mates had me photograph everything, they said that way when we get old we could remember our summers at Quinibeck. I was only ten and it was my first camera, but hey these are fun to look at.
I used to lend my records and portable radio to the counselors at night so they could listen to music. The counselors took turns being on watch outside the cabins at night. I got some extra treats from them for this, and when all the other kids had to stay in their cabins in their pajamas in bed, I got to hang out with them and listen to tunes like the Beatles. We sat together outside on a blanket under the stars in the Vermont sky. In particular Lee from Ohio, was the most cool counselor I have ever had, and I learned a lot from her. I remember she liked Simon And Garfunkel, and had their poster on the wall of the cabin.
One evening, we all went"up the hill" maybe this was to the senior camp, we didn't have any electricity in the junior camp, we were all in our pajamas. It was July 20, 1969. We sat around in a large hall, and watched a black and white tv with millions of other Americans and the whole world. This was the first time a person had ever walked on the moon. We saw and we heard Neil Armstrong say: "That's one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind."
MY CONCLUSION AFTER GOING THROUGH THIS EXPERIENCE
Foremost I think that I was excluded from knowing what was going on because in doing so, they chose the path of least resistance. As most everyone else I knew all my life, and was related to, either knew that it was me with a nail in my head, and the iLisa and they werent allowed to speak about this, due to the sensitive and secret nature of the project, or they chose to believe the devil who told everyone everything about the secret project, just totally backwards that this had all been done to it and against its will, and routinely loudy spouted out its lies. I still wonder why they believed her, I just dont see the side of her that convinced everyone, I only see the sociopath side. And if there was no money involved I have to wonder if things would have worked out the same. As someone once said, "Money is the route of all evil.", I think that it did make the difference unfortunatly.
Since I didnt know what was going on, it was simple to take me out of the picture and do whatever they wanted, it was like taking candy from a baby, to keep me in the dark, as everyone else benefited in financial ways most of their lives. This is why I say they chose the path of least resistance, as there was nothing those that knew the truth or I could do about it. There would have been great resistance if the devil who loudly spouted out untruths, was made to keep quiet and to go to prison. The problem is that lots of people got hurt who wouldnt have, and many arent here on the earth with us anymore, and would have if the right choice had been chosen years ago. It may have seemed like the easy way out at the time. And getting into things are often much easier than getting out of them. And the situation is as complex as it could be, and has been hard on all of us.
I forgive most everyone except the devil, the devils plan was that when this was all over, that I would be so angry with everyone that I wouldnt even speak to anyone. She wasnt going to be satisfied unless she had destroyed my relationships, as she was jealous of me for one thing, saying this is a huge understatement. This was a goal of hers, and to the extreme.
She has taken the word jealousy, which she is of me, and stretched it beyond monster like proportions, anyone who came in contact with me, and in any positive way was to be eliminated from my life, if it meant taking their life to do this, then that was no object, and she relished the job accomplishing this.
I think the devil wished she was thought of and cared about as others thought of me, even as kids when we didnt have any money or anything, she demanded that others shower her with attention, and show that she was more important to them, than I was.
As she got older, the problems got bigger, and now it was more than just for attention, so she stole my identity, family and friends, kept them from me, and tried to become me.
She isnt like me, and never could be, she did anything to anyone at first, and at any cost to anyone, and including if it killed her, and now it has. She cant stop this sick addiction to hurting people, especially those in my life, and we had to stop her ourselves, which we are, that is what this story I am writing is about.
She really cares what people think of her, not only to get away with all this, but even now when she knows she is caught, and nothing will make a difference anyway, she cant and wont face anyone now. This is why until the very last second she wanted everyone to think she was actually the good person who is actually me, and I am the bad person who is actually her.
She didnt want people to know her for the evil and needy person with a lot of psychological problems that she really is, that was why this is so critical to her that nobody acknowledge that she is just a fake, a sociopath and a phony, and the exact opposite of who she attempted to portray herself as.
What one of my sisters who is very perceptive, told me in the 1980a about the devil after meeting it for the first time and before we knew it wasnt even related and a product of incest instead was very accurate, and I agree with her. She said speaking about the devil, “she wouldnt have to go around doing things like this, if she felt better about herself.”
She has such low self esteem, that she derives her feelings of who she feels she is, by outside forces, of how people think of her and treat her,needing huge displays of attention from others, even when it becomes self defeating as now it had. Because, when this wall is torn down and the truth sees the light of day, she cant stand it, she cant face others, and she cant face herself most of all.
That the devil is this perverse, and many didnt perceive this at first, its not their fault, a sociopath can hide behind a false persona, and go undetected, that is the very nature of this sickness. It is how they can get away with it, they are exactly the ones that dont have "the devil" written all over their faces, they wouldnt be able to get away with it if they did. I couldnt even detect that it was "it" from camp, until the last few years, so I made mistakes too, and didnt even know what the truth was either, and cant judge others as I am no better, just human.
Anyone who thinks this could not happen to them, that they would know, I say this, nobody is immune from the devil.
And although many are bound by the legal agreement, that I forgive most everyone. and this is my conclusion. We should forgive each other more because life is too short for these battles. Its no wonder that the world is in the state that it is, with wars breaking out all over, when you see families fighting like this and they are unable to work things out even among themselves. If you want you can always find a reason to hate, or to go to war or to fight and not forgive, but we should be spending our energy working things out not in a battle. If you want you can also always find a reason to love, find peace and to forgive, and try to work things out. Its a choice we all have. Its really about what we want not the situation. When you are told it didn't happen, you didn't hear that, we or they didn't say that, you can tell by the way they say it that it's not true. You know these people! You can tell, plain and simple, I became even more sensitive to my parent's and others feelings. I know I have always been. All this lying has helped to fine tune my intuition. It was my only way to defend myself my whole life. It was the only way for me to know what the truth is, after awhile you just shut down. You stop allowing them to hurt you any more, you just put up defenses. My intuition became my way to survive in a family like this. Thank God for giving me the gift. What makes me angry is that the devil has people attack us, instead of helping us. They say we must be crazy, they say the people who are helping you are the ones lying to you. This whole thing has gone way too far. Many times I would wonder why my birthmother always acted like I was someone else and I kept saying that to her. It was like she was reacting to something other than what I said or what I was doing. I first thought this was because I looked so much like my birthfather, that she was looking at me and seeing and reacting to my birthfather. I thought it was a kind of misdirected anger she had at my birthfather Jerry. I tried to understand and forgive that. Now I know it was all the devil. It had nothing to do with me as I had thought. It is all making sense to me, finally.
Me Leaving for Camp Meadowlark
My brother Eric and I
Eric and his wife Andrea
2011 update!!!!!! UPDATE SATURDAY JANUARY 22, 2011: NEWSFLASH !!!!!!!! THE DEVIL IS UNDER HOUSE ARREST, AND IS BEING CONTROLED, AND THINGS ARE NOT COMPLETELY STOPPED YET, HOWEVER THE IMPORTANT PART IS THAT THINGS ARE MUCH MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS, AND HELP. I AM NOW BEING PROTECTED AND I AM ABLE TO PROTECT MYSELF, ANDTHANK YOU AND THANK GOD.
Another newsflash, I am fine now. Its still under house arrest, and its evil behavior is no longer effecting me at all. So I am resting today, and watching travel videos. This is the devils travel video, we are watching it now with it.
NEWSFLASH:: JAN. 24, 2011 6:66 PM The devil has become violent and very upset about the devils travel video, no more heroin and that it can no longer hurt me in anyway, and that there is virtually nobody left to believe it , that I want to personally thank the Winnetka Police Chief De Lopez for printing a (temporary lie) for following through with the no matter what deal. As I mentioned the devil never faces anyone ever again, after you know she is lying, and now is definitely no exception.
Winnetka Police Chief De Lopez has agreed to the devils request to make it appear that she is NOT guilty and that is until the ~very~ last second, and that (soon to be former) Winnetka Police Chief Kreis is taking over. It is of course the other way around. The truth is that Winnetka Police Chief Kreis will have to step down and Winnetka Police Chief De Lopez will remain head of the police force, we will need a replacement for Mr Kreis. That is the truth. and again thank you. t Please see the article about this. IT IS STILL TRYING!!!!!! We wont be ending this standoff until an unknown date in the future. I am just putting out a warning to anyone listening, that she could put you, your friends or your family in danger if you listen to the devil. I wont mention the other requirements from the stupid plea bargain she made when she got out of prison, as they havent happened as of yet, and its secret ! She is sick and has a hurting addiction, so please keep yourself, your family and friends safe, and be careful. Stay tuned !!!!!t t t t t t t
All is fine with me now that she is under house arrest. Your thoughts and prayers have helped make all the difference. The devil is furious about this warning I have made, trying to protect others, and for others to see, and she is angry with all of you, and with me, and more than anything that it cant hurt me or anyone else anymore, and that its finally caught this time for good. I really appreciate this. Excellent job. Thank you again.